Dust || Yoon Jeonghan

Pretty u

Present:

"ms. song i want you to get out every possible footage. got it? don't be too laidback."

i smiled. the fake one obviously. 

"of course mr. oh how can i do anything wrong under your guidance."

he stared at me judgmentally. "you are fake as fuck. i am sure you will succeed."

i grinned brightly and he scrunched his nose in disgust. i was supposed to assist him but he is making me do all the work.

your hair aren't going to grow by passing your stress to me idiot.

"thank you so much. mr. oh. i will get going now." i gave him a deep bow before leaving to handle his job.

this project felt a lot more difficult than i could've imagined. it was as if there was a weight on my heart that made it difficult to breathe. every time the camera's were turned off, a sense of urgency would build up inside me. as if i was running late to somewhere. as if i was about to lose something very precious.

but it was deceiving. because i don't have anything precious to protect. or anyone as i should say.

we were shooting the group eat together in the courtyard while discussing what they have been doing this year. it was supposed to be emotional and we tried our best to hint that. but some of the members kept cracking jokes in between.

like seungkwan.

"and i was really grateful to shua hyung this year because he really takes care of the younger members" everyone was getting sentimental. "and i am grateful to dino for still not breaking ties with me."

the members started laughing at the sudden remark.

here goes my vision down the drain!

i had to step in to change the flow of the conversation.

"scoups shi why don't you talk about who helped you a lot this year since you are the leader."

"arin shi didn't you say we can talk about whatever we want to?"

they love being difficult.

even though seungcheol said that he still followed my advise. and the conversation was finally going in the direction i wanted it too.

"i want to say something to jeonghan too" scoups said looking at jeonghan with a warm gaze. "you have been through a lot in the last few years and i am really grateful that despite everything, you always kept the team first. no one thinks about seventeen as much as you."

jeonghan giggled shyly and his face was lit by the bonfire. he looked so pretty.

maybe he is happier without me.

"take a close up shot of jeonghan" i told a cameraman. "he looks so pretty" i whispered not caring if anyone heard.

because they all will agree.

jeonghan is pretty. and he looks even prettier when he is happy.

he is so happy without me.

perhaps i am the one who couldn't keep him happy. maybe that's why jeonghan started behaving strangely a few months before i broke up with him. maybe that was the reason behind him ignoring me. hiding things from me. pretending to be busy just so he could avoid me.

perhaps he did all of that just because i couldn't care for him the ways his friends do.

no.

that still doesn't justify what he did.

ignoring me was red flag behavior. it wasn't my fault. it can never be.

:o Cookie: Arin left her home at 16 because her parents didn't support her dream and never contacted her family again. she has always been very ambitious resulting in her often being ignorant about her own flaws.