Dust || Yoon Jeonghan

For money

Present: 

perhaps the most shocking thing about my breakup with eunwoo is that i moved on from the break up quicker than the cheating rumor. 

i mean i did cry enough to save the earth from water shortage. but i didn't die my hair after the break up. so yeah no hard feelings.

it's only been 2 weeks though. something that hurts more than the fact that eunwoo blocked me is that seungkwan stopped trying to reach me. to be fair he tried for a week. but i was too freshly hurt and too angry. 

i still don't know how to feel about the things mingyu told eunwoo. but i have decided it doesn't matter. i will probably never meet them again. 

a few moments later : 

i was so fucking wrong.

"i think we are all on the same page then." mr. oh asked. 

i raised my hand timidly. it isn't like i have ever hesitated to speak my mind though. 

he sighed. maybe he is tired of me speaking my mind.

"yes ms. song?" he didn't even look at me as he asked as if it's an everyday affair. i mean it is but

"i think we should consider a 4th gen group for this." i bit my lip as i tried out my luck.

"ummm.... no"

my eyes widened at his reply. 

"i think we should choose a rising group like skz for example. or treasure? txt?" i got more desperate as he continued to shake his head in refusal. 

"enhypen? ateez?"

"seventeen ms. song seventeen." he pressed his palms over the desk in frustration. "i don't care if you are an anti or if you are allergic to funny people but it's seventeen we are choosing. trip to japan. two weeks. after 3 weeks. meet me when you get ideas."

he dismissed the meeting with one last glare towards me.

damn i need to call hara.

as soon as it was lunch break i ran to the washroom. to pee. but also to talk to hara.

"hey baby girl" 

"hara i am in a mess"

"what now? eunwoo realized you are not a cheater and is begging to take him back?"

"what?? nooo." 

"oh sorry. what's it?"

"my agency is making a variety show."

"isn't that what your agency always does?"

"yess but they are casting seventeen! and it's a two week trip to japan!"

"so?"

"what do you mean so? i can't handle seeing even one of them right now. i feel like quitting"

"why?"

i sighed. gosh she is being annoying today. 

"because just hearing their name reminds me of the rumor about me cheating on jeonghan."

"but you didn't cheat so what does it matter?"

"yeah but-"

"but what ari? tell me what's most important for you?"

"my mental health?"

"try again."

"creating a good show?"

"be honest."

"alright. money."

"yeahh so work hard and get that paycheck. you have already struggled too much because of these idols. focus on your job now. don't give them control over you. two weeks? that's nothing. you are going to stay in this industry for decades baby. you will be one of the top pds. don't let that vision disappear ok?"

"you are right." i nodded as if she could see me. i was in a daze as i imagined being a top pd and commanding the newbies around. no matter how much my ideas suck everyone will clap. my stupidest jokes will make them faint of laughter. i can wear the ugliest clothes and messy bun to work. i can have ramen and soju everyday and die early. 

beautiful. just the kind of life i want.

i can't let my heart distract me. money is everything :)

:o Cookie : hara encouraged arin to break up with jeonghan because jeonghan had been distant for more than 4 months. and even hid his days off from arin always saying that he was busy.

A/N : sorry eunwoo but this is the last time you appear here. this arin girl moves on fast (except from jeonghan)