Dust || Yoon Jeonghan

back then

Past:

right from my childhood i was always everyone's second priority. my parents loved my brother over me, they hated how opinionated i was. 

but i never talked back to them.

when my father said he hated that i trimmed my hair too short, i didn't say anything.

i just went back to the salon and got a pixie cut.

whether it was school or home, i never found people who cared for me, so naturally i took care of my own self. i became my first priority. 

ever since i left home, i was completely on my own and i never felt like doing anything for others either. and yet, there i was cooking pasta for someone else in the morning while humming softly.

i had never cooked for any one before but this was different. i was cooking for someone i love. someone who was asleep in my bed after a long day and even longer night. jeonghan makes me want to do things i never do for others. even though he never asks for anything, i want to give him everything.

i tried to follow the youtube video clumsily. every time i try to cook my food turns out salty and bitter like me so i sticked to the recipe as well as i could.

it scares me how much i lose my self when it comes to jeonghan. i try hard to keep my boundaries but it's so difficult when he loves me so much. 

i furrowed my brows as i whisked the pancake batter. suddenly hands wrapped around my waist from the back and i giggled as jeonghan dug his face into my neck.

"good morning riri" he hummed into my neck sending a shiver down my spine. his voice was low and raspy. i placed the bowl on the counter and jeonghan pulled me closer to himself, wrapping his arms tightly around my torso. he planted soft kisses on my jaw and cheeks one after another. i couldn't stop giggling at the tickling sensation. 

"stop it tickles" 

"but i like your laugh" 

he turned me around suddenly and we just stared at each other with smiles on our faces. 

i was terrified by the amount of happiness just looking at him gives me. i depend on him so much. it feels as if i can't live without him anymore.

jeonghan admired my face for a while before closing the distance between our lips. his kisses were light as a feather but plenty. my heart wouldn't stop fluttering as he showered my whole face with soft kisses.

"what's with all the kisses?" i chuckled as soon as he freed my lips.

"nothing. i just love you so much and i don't know what else to do."

i circled my arms around his neck and jeonghan looked at me fondly as i smiled playfully.
"i love you too yoon jeonghan. give me a chance to do something too"

before he could reply i smashed my lips on top of his. unlike jeonghan's soft heart fluttering kisses, i deepened the kiss.

and in that moment i was consumed by euphoria. i felt certain in my heart that i had found the only person i want to spend a lifetime with. 

:o Cookie: jeonghan had to be the one to come to meet arin since she was always working and never initiated any dates.

A/N: updates are going to be slow because i can't focus T-T but i will try to update as soon as i can :(