Deja vu

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 "any questions?"

jeonghan raised his hand as i finished the briefing. i forced myself to look at him. he looked just like the past. perhaps even more beautiful than before.

focus arin.

"yeah?"

"will you prefer shua over me?"

the members turned towards jeonghan in surprise but he didn't seem to care. joshua was looking down at his feet instead. i wasn't entirely sure what that was supposed to mean. he couldn't mean it in that way could he?

"i treat all artists equally." i maintained my composure. "unless you cheat."

yeah i regretted saying that.

"so is it okay to treat someone differently if they cheat?" jeonghan asked again and the uncomfortable stares from the members told me that he wasn't talking about games.

i blinked as i stared at jeonghan in disbelief. 

until now deep inside my heart i believed jeonghan would never lie about me. but now it was confirmed. he really did build the image that i cheated on him.

my breath felt shaky and shallow. 

stupid anxiety

"i think that's enough questions." seungcheol said suddenly. 

all 3 oldest were quite for the rest of the meeting. seungkwan spoke a lot to mr. oh but he continued to ignore me. he has never done that before but then i did ghost him without any explanation. so it's fair i guess.

i am used to losing people at this point.

as soon as the meeting was over i sprinted out for fresh air. i sat down on a stair beside a window with my head in my hands and breathed deeply. no anxiety should get in the way of this project.

"am i being too difficult?" someone said from behind me. i looked up at him with glossy eyes. jeonghan had his hands inside his pocket as he scanned my face with a concerned look. 

"when were you not?" i scoffed.

surprisingly he proceeded to sit beside me. i gave him a puzzled look and he shrugged.

"need to get comfortable if we are going to work together."

"there's no need for that" i got up to leave but his grip on my wrist stopped me.

did i ever mention that his one touch would be enough to break my facade?

i furrowed my brows in annoyance as my eyes brimmed with moisture. so embarrassing. jeonghan was looking up at me with an innocent face.

i hate my heart so much.

because i wanted to hug him. 

even though i knew he turned me into a cheater. even though i knew he moved on from me. and i would like to think that i did too. 

even though everything went wrong.

"i heard about your breakup"

damn that mingyu is a snitch.

"are you expecting a thankyou for your contribution perhaps?"

"i am expecting you to question me." jeonghan didn't faze by my sarcasm. 

he was expecting me to seek answers and here i was, trying desperately to escape the past.

i looked down at his hand still holding my wrist and the black bracelet around it.

what kind of  sick powerplay is this?

"i don't want anything to do with you. let's just get this show over with"

he let go of my hand and flashed a small smile.

"as you wish pd nim."


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:o Cookie : jeonghan and joshua used to hang out with arin together as friends before jeonghan and arin started dating. joshua was the first one to figure out that jeonghan was deeply in love with her.

A/N: he is so beautiful. why the fuck did arin break up with him?


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