The memories along the flower road
They returned back like dust
And say I still love you
..............
i broke up with yoon jeonghan
and i thought it was the end of our story.
i never knew that it was just the beginning and fate had planned more t...
my heart was throbbing in my chest, the sirens were getting deafening. it was wrong. it was so wrong. but we had already crossed the boundary.
he was holding onto me desperately. he was pouring out all his feelings to the last drop, determined to bring an end to everything that ever was and everything that could have been. i was getting dragged along, my eyes were tearing up but it was no use. i let pain drive me off the cliff and i was in the middle of a fall. i couldn't stop.
he was kissing me relentlessly. he wasn't giving me time to think. it was happening too fast and the world was spinning in front of my eyes. it was when i felt his fingertips on my exposed back that i broke out of the trance.
i placed my hands on his chest and pushed him as hard as i could. he stumbled and grabbed the balcony. we were drawing in heavy breaths as we looked at each other in shame and disbelief. this wasn't supposed to happen. i wanted to fix everything. just hours ago, i took the resolve to make everything better this year. and now it's gone.
"what did you do?" i pressed a hand to my temple as hot tears started to flow down my face. "this shouldn't have happened it shouldn't-" i was panicking. i just wanted to go back to a few minutes ago somehow. i wanted to erase it and forget it but it was a helpless situation. time cannot turn back. once you make a wrong choice, consequences will follow.
"i am sorry" joshua stepped forward but i took a step back. i couldn't even look at his face. "don't follow me" i demanded and sprinted to the door without looking back. i just wanted to be as far from him as possible. i wanted to forget everything.
i wanted to pretend that nothing ever happened.
i walked as fast as i could in my heels. i couldn't stop because if i stopped then i would realize just how grave the situation was and i wasn't ready to accept it. the corridor seemed infinitely long. my phone buzzed and it felt as if my heart would burst out of my chest any moment as i stared at it.
hannie💖 don't fight with shua good night baby
i will sleep now
i couldn't even see clearly as tears welled up in my eyes. i just wanted to get out of the place but the elevator seemed to be getting farther the more i walked. i stumbled back as i bumped into someone.
"are you okay?"
i nodded without bothering to look at him. his voice was familiar but i couldn't identify it. i was feeling too dizzy.
that night, i drank until i passed out, hoping that when i wake up i would forget everything and then it wouldn't matter. the memories were foggy but they weren't erased. i knew i made a mistake but i wasn't ready to take the blame.
it was a mistake. i was drunk. i was anxious. i didn't stop him but i didn't kiss him back.
it was all joshua's fault.
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:o Cookie: arin had suspected that the new year night had something to do with the claims being made about her which was why she was hesitant to confront them about it. in her point of view she never had feelings for anyone but jeonghan so it wasn't cheating but a mistake on joshua's part.
