Dust || Yoon Jeonghan

Break up pt. 2

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I was devastated.

even though i have only dated eunwoo for 4 months, it wasn't easy to accept that he will probably break up with me very soon. and that too because he thought i was a cheater.

as soon as he told me that it was mingyu who said these things about me, i knew i didn't stand a chance. why would he trust me, someone he didn't even know until 8 months ago, over his best friend?

eunwoo had meant a lot to me. he promised me he would never repeat what jeonghan did. and he kept his promise. no matter how busy he was, he always found time.

he was so gentle with me. never crossed boundaries. never tried to dig out details of my past relationships. he even accepted that i didn't want anyone in the industry to know about us. only his members and manager knew my name and face.

it was so good. then, why couldn't it end in peace?

my phone buzzed. it was seungkwan again. he was texting and calling me continuously since an hour ago. i was convinced that he had a third eye because he never missed anything. he definitely saw me run away from the party. 

I watched his face appear as the phone buzzed and stilled. 

suddenly there was a knock at my door. I dragged myself to the door like a half dead zombie and opened the door with a grumpy look on my face. it changed to a nervous look as soon as i saw who it was. 

eunwoo flashed an empty smile at me before inviting himself inside. i locked the door behind me and found him already seated on my couch. I sat across him, avoiding his piercing gaze on me. 

"Don't you want to say something?" he asked me. i felt grateful for his gentle tone.

"i know what you are here for eunwoo. don't waste your time." 

he sighed. 

is he tired of my stubbornness?

he leaned forward and took my hands in his. he looked down at our hands as his thumb trailed softly over my palm. 

"i am sorry arin. i shouldn't be the one to this after persuading you to give this relationship a chance." 

even though i was expecting this situation, i could still feel my heart break at his words.

"just know that i am not doing it because of your past actions." he was speaking in a low tone, almost mumbling the words. 

"you mean what mingyu said were my past actions?" 

"why are you bringing him up?" he looked into my eyes defensively. 

"correction, he is the one who brought this up!"

"he isn't trying to cause drama arin. stop blaming him. he just told me about jeonghan's relationship. because jeonghan was not himself for a long time. mingyu never said your name. and he is not gay and  jealous for me" 

i clenched my jaw. so he was really offended by that text. he must think i am immature. 

"just break up with me already" i mumbled with my eyes cast down. 

it's not like i can't live without you

he let go of my hands and stood up. 

"fine then. i know you don't have much feelings for me anyways." eunwoo said bitterly. "i hope you find someone you actually love"

my eyes were brimming with moisture but i blinked the tears away. 

"i wish the same for you eunwoo." i forced myself to meet his eyes. "i wish you find someone you actually trust." 

"i wished it could be you."

the sour feelings inside me turned into gloominess at his words. i am the villain in his eyes. this is so unfair. part of me wants to confront everyone and prove my innocence. but i knew it was better to let go. 

there was no reason to care about what they think of me. I don't want to find out that jeonghan tried to frame me as a cheater. i don't want to know anything that would make me hate him. 

i don't want to talk about anything that would make it obvious that i still haven't moved on. 

 

:o Cookie : arin regretted breaking up with jeonghan but she never accepted it even to her own self.