Dust || Yoon Jeonghan

Birthday Party

The second time i fucked up was going to producer kang's birthday party. I knew seventeen would be there but i had believed the probability of meeting them was very low. my calculation was correct but i forgot to consider the fact that my luck was absolutely shitty.

it was october, more than an year after our break up.

I was quite elated most of the evening. as soon as i came i wished the producer then joined my colleagues, having fun conversing and drinking with them. it could have gone perfectly like this since usually artists and crews hang out separately. but seventeen had to be a humble group to make things difficult for me.

"hey" someone patted my shoulder. i knew who it was even before i saw him. i also knew that he was going to very angry. still i turned to face him.

"you are coming with me" he said pouting angrily making sure i get the message that i can't refuse. i surrendered and he gently dragged me to a corner.

"what are you doing song arin?" he asked accusingly.
"umm i was enjoying the party before you dragged me to this dark and lonely corner."
he placed both of his hands on his waist.

"don't make me more angry." he raised his brows.
i just stared into his eyes. even though he was pretending to be angry i could tell it was just concern disguised as anger.

i felt sorry towards him. before he could scold me more i circled my arms around his neck and hugged him lightly. he was flustered but he hugged me back immediately, patting my back for comforting me.

"i am so sorry seungkwan." he tried to pull away but i resisted not wanting to see his sulky face.
"okay alright leave me from your chokehold now." he chuckled when i didn't leave him for a long time. i finally backed down. 

"so" he smirked.
"so what?" i sulked. 

"why were you avoiding me?" 
so he did catch me avoid seventeen like a plague.

i refused to meet his eyes.
"you know already. you aren't alone here, it gets awkward around your members."
"song arin" he challenged. "the last time we met was 4 months ago and that too only because i came to you. you don't even contact me except your stupid memes."

"sorry" i pouted. he took my hands in his.
"remember you didn't break up with me." he stated.

"i know i am sorry." i was sincere.

i didn't want to be distant to seungkwan. he was one of my closest friends. but even our friendship was stained after my break up with jeonghan.

he squeezed my hands before letting go of them and putting an arm around my shoulder.
"let's get a drink." he said pushing me forward. i complied like a stubborn child being forced to obey.

as soon as we reached the bar my eyes landed on the person i did not want to see. yoon jeonghan was there along with hoshi and chan. he was wearing a silky white shirt that contrasted with his black hair. he was laughing so innocently and warmly, no one could guess he was making fun of hoshi.

seungkwan squeezed my hand trying to give me the courage to face them. well he failed. my heart was beating so fast it could probably be seen in my body hugging black dress. for the first time i regretted not wearing something more modest.

my confidence ran out and i stopped abruptly.
"i don't want to drink. let's just go back please." i whined.

"oh hi" before seungkwan could persuade me hoshi spoke up. all four set of eyes turned towards me. 
"hello" i bowed slightly making things more awkward by my formal behaviour. seungkwan pushed me closer. i noticed jeonghan putting on his signature fake smile. 
"oh it's been so long." chan pulled me into a hug. 

chan's smile hadn't changed a bit. it was the only thing that hadn't changed from then to now. it made me a little more comfortable and we engaged in small talk for some time. both jeonghan and me pretended like we couldn't see each other.

"your watch is so cool" i praised hoshi's watch which had a tiger's head on the dial.

"thanks jeonghan hyung gifted me this." hoshi didn't seem to notice what he did. 

"it's really pretty." my smile could no longer hide the blue inside me. 

"we came here for drinks let get a drink now" seungkwan tried to elevate the vibe. jeonghan was staring at me as if he was waiting to see my next move. but before i could do anything mingyu appeared hand in hand with someone i didn't expect to see that night.

Cha Eunwoo.

:O Cookie - seungkwan had scolded arin for forcing a one sided break up on jeonghan, making it difficult for arin to separate her friendship with seungkwan from the messy breakup.