The Captured Moments: Scandalous Series 3 [ON-GOING]

Chapter 17

Nakangiti ako habang nakaharap sa monitor. Ang extra productive ng mga daliri ko ngayong araw. Kahit iyong hindi ko trabaho ay ako na ang nag presinta na gawin ito.

Nagawa ko pang isingit ang pag e-edit ko sa mga shoot namin sa Bently. It was one of our final output before pre-lims at individual iyon. Inabot ako ng isang linggo sa pag-iisip kung paano ito tatapusin. Pero ngayon, grabe, natapos ko ito ng walang kahirap-hirap.

Panibagong ngiti muli ang ginawa ko bago isandal ang likod sa backrest ng upuan ko. Ang tagal ng oras pero mahaba naman ang pasensya ko kaya ginawa kong magpakabusy sa trabaho. Pero ang bilis ko talagang matapos.

"Nakakapanibago." bulong ni Ian.

"I know I am crazy with her, pero hindi naman ako umabot sa ganiyang point diba?" bulong pa ni Jet.

"Naririnig ko kayo."

Natawa silang dalawa. "You have figured it out?"

Kumunot ang noo ko kay Ian. "Figured what?"

Nagtitigan sila ni Jet. Hinintay ko sila na may sabihin pero nagkibit balikat lang sila. Umiling ako at kinuha iyong libro. The book was entitled 'A Gentle Reminder' by Bianca Sparacino.

Ang sarap sa pakiramdam na maregalohan ng ganitong libro. Iyong nagbibigay ng mga ganito, they are the person who doesn't pressure you to open up. But they do make an effort to understand your feelings. There's no need to force yourself to share, but they always make it clear that they're there for you, striving to understand.

To the home where I live right now, I honestly wanted to become clueless as to how I would feel about something. Kasi kung magagalit ako. . . may magpaparamdam sayo na sino ka para magalit?

Kung iiyak ka, tatanungin ka na bakit ka umiiyak? Nagpapaawa ka ba?

Bakit ka malulungkot? You almost have everything.

Another reason I didn't enjoy conversing with others was that I often felt invalidated. Then I had to act clueless, forget the feelings the next day, and simply accept it as a part of life.

Lalo na pag kasama ko si Mercy.

Sabi ko sa sarili ko, it's no harm in adjusting. Just always try to understand her. Normal lang iyong mga reaction niya. Normal lang na saktan ka niya. Normal lang na sigawan ka niya. And I choose to always end up the reckless child. Para atleast, naging totoo naman ang itinawag niya sa akin.

I've realized that I no longer want to appear clueless. In the past, I was always open-minded, even when I rejected a lot of people. However, I now recognize the importance of being genuine to myself.

Na nasasaktan ako. And so what? So what, if I was weak? So what, if I was scared? And so what, if Mercy doesn't like me?

After reading this book, I feel that I should be gentler with myself. I've come to realize that I need to prioritize my well-being and choose myself first. I've learned that all of my feelings are valid. They are not just rebellious or scandalous; they come from the depths of my heart, which was a normal reaction to specific situations.

Hindi lang pala iyon exagerration na palagi kong ikinukumbinsi sa isip ko.

Nang mag hapon na, umuwi ako sa bahay ni Mercy. Naligo ako at nagpalit ng damit. White dress iyong suot ko at flat sandals. Tinitigan ko ang sarili sa salamin, I saw a new version of myself. No fake smile, no adjusments and it was all because of Ethan.

Nag text si Sachi na nasa baba na ang personal bodyguard niya. Habang naglalakad ay nag e-explain ako kay Cooper na hindi ko siya pwedeng isama dahil baka mahilo siya. Paglabas namin ay tumahol agad si Vj na gusto ng tumalon sa bintana ng sasakyan. Ngumiti ako kay Ashton at tumango naman ito.