Beautiful Ruin

Chapter 44

Jordan

"What are you doing?"

When I entered the bedroom Mani was packing a bag. I closed the door and locked it. If she thinks she's leaving she got another thing coming.

"Leaving Jordan, giving you what you want."

"I never said I wanted you to leave Emani."

"YOU DIDN'T FUCKING HAVE TO!"

"First off calm that shit down when you talking to me cause I ain't even come at you no type of way.  You been so fucking disrespectful how the fuck you think I'm suppose to feel Emani?! You gave me so much grieve when I cheated and now when you do I'm suppose to forgive you and welcome you with open arms? Fuck no. I love you so much Emani that when you cheated it really hurt. It cut so deep. what made me feel worse as that when I tried spending time with you or talking to you, you brushed me off like I ain't shit! I was already hurt and feeling neglected but I bit my tongue and bid my time and waited for you to come around. You never did."

"I never wanted any of this Jordan. After all the shit that happened last year; me being pregnant and in a coma, you being in jail and missing school, it hasn't been the same. I'm playing catch up with life right now and missing out on so much along the way.Alex caught me at an awful time and she took advantage and I wished you would've seen that. You were right I did enjoy myself with Alex. Did I hurt you in the process, yes but that's just because I'm lost right now. I've changed Jordan, a lot more than you think. Pushing you away was never my intentions. I thought as time went on things would get better but I made it worse and for that I'm sorry."

I sat on the bed and watched Emani continue pack.

"So you feel the right thing to do is run away from us?"

"Jordan who are we fooling here? We both know you were leaving me..."

"I wasn't leaving you Emani. I told you I'm hurt like fuck and what you did just keeps pissing me off the more I think about it. Would you stop packing and talk to me."

"What is left to say? I have apologized since day one Jordan. One day sorry just ain't gonna cut it with us. I love you but I can't stay around while your being bitter and spiteful to me and keeping me away from our daughter cause that shit hurts too."

She finished packing and zipped up her duffle bag. As she made her way towards the door, I cut her off and stood in front of it.

"Your not leaving Mani."

"I never said it was for good Jordan just giving you your space."

"Why are you doing this? Your not even fighting for us."

"I have been Jordan but what can I do when you continuously shut me down huh?"

"Fight harder! Do you even love me anymore?"

"Yes I do but is love enough to stay around? Is having a kid enough to make me stay awhile longer? Just let me go Jordan, I will be back on Monday."

"So what you gonna go down the hall and stay with Alex huh?"

"You know what Jordan go fuck yo..."

I grabbed her mouth and kissed her letting out all the pain, the rage, the hurt and tension that has been building up for months. I pulled the bag out of her hand and flung it across the room.

"You.Are.Not.Leaving."

"I will fight you."

I smiled and looked down at her, "You can try."

I kissed her this time softer and slower and more sensual. She resisted at first but soon gave in to me and let me slip my tongue in her mouth. I lifted her up and walked over to the bed where I threw her down. She looked at me with wide eyes but I was just getting started. Things are about to get real rough real fast. I took my shirt off and flung it on the floor before climbing on top of her. I held her hands over her head and went back to attacking her mouth. Using my free hand, I ripped open her shirt and made quick work of her bra. I pulled her up and took them off of her then pushed her back down. I could see the fire lit in her eyes as if daring me to do my worst.

Challenge accepted.