BTS Imagines

Suga ~ Forgive Me

I NEED YOU REQUEST

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You knew this day would come. You knew that one day he'll find out, because it's impossible to keep a secret forever. It doesn't work that way. Maybe it's better off like this, perhaps it was better that you told him what happened between you and your ex-boyfriend. If only you weren't such a coward, now all you had was guilt and regrets.

"I meant to tell you. I really wanted to but I was scared, Yoongi." You cried. Suga kept his eyes on the road. He didn't even comfort you, streaks of pale yellow light from outside illuminated his stone cold face as he drove through the tunnel, "It was a mistake. We were both drunk.. It didn't mean anything. Please believe me, Yoongi."

He pulled over to the side of the road, "Why now?" Was the first word he uttered since the moment he found out about your one night stand with your ex, "Why are you only telling me this now?"

"Yoongi.." Taking the seatbelt off, you lean forward to touch him but he avoided you, pushing you back.

Suga opened the car door and stepped out, leaving you alone inside his car. "Ahh!!"

You could only close your eyes and cry as you listen to him shout and aim his fist at the wall. You were so stupid to think that he wouldn't find out. Now everything's crumbling down, your relationship will never be the same. You didn't even know how to start fixing it. How can he trust you again?

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Why can't I accept her reasons even when I know she's telling the truth?

I can't look at her face without feeling pity for myself. I'm a coward for not being able to tell her. Why does she have to look at me with tears on her eyes? If only she knew that I'm the bad guy.

Why did I have to wait for her to tell me the truth? Why do I need to find a reason to hate her?

Please give me the courage to tell her.. that I sleep in someone else's bed when she's not looking. That I met another girl who I used to satisfy my lust. That I've been cheating on her and it wasn't just a one time thing.

"Ahh!!" I sent my balled fist to the wall. I'm tired of this shit. I don't want to lie anymore. Seeing her efforts to fix our relationship made me realize that I do want to be with her.

I love her but I can only hope that she'll forgive me.

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"Y/n.." Yoongi's feet wouldn't move from the spot where he was standing when another vehicle crashed towards his car. His knees bucked and he fell to the ground as he watched the wreck in front of him.

"Sir, are you okay?" A woman was repeatedly patting his shoulder, pulling him out of his own trance.

"Y/n!!" His feet finally worked and he ran to his car, where you're probably hurt and unconscious under all the mess from the accident. Suga struggled to break loose from the police's grip, "My fiancé is in there!! Let me go!!"

"Sir, you can't go in there. It's dangerous. We are in control of the situation." Another rescuer replied to him and turned to the police who was restraining him, "Take him to the ambulance. They know what to do with him."

"No! I won't go!! Y/n!" Suga fought hard but it was pointless with four persons holding him down. He lost all his strength as he watched the burning flames slowly engulf the remains of his car. Suga fell on his knees again after being subdued, he couldn't fight anymore. "y/n needs me. I need to save her. Please.. let me save her."

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Suga stood in front of a large marble stone with your name on it, your birthday and the day you died. He placed a bouquet of flowers in your grave, running his fingers slowly over your name. He closed his eyes, "It's been a year, y/n but I still can't accept that you're gone."

"You died so suddenly. I didn't even have time to apologize for every fault I did to you." Kneeling on the grass beside your tomb, Suga lit a single candle for your soul, "I want you to know that you're the only girl I truly loved. I realized that now." He laughed in mockery, "I don't get it.. Why do you have to find the value of a person when they're gone? I miss you so bad."

"Why did I have to leave you there? If only I wasn't such a coward, I could've saved your life." Suga shoulders shook as he began to cry, his knees on the ground. "I'm sorry, y/n." His tears fell on your name as the guilt eat him up inside. "Forgive me." He whispered on your grave, "I love you. I wish I could turn back time.."

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"Yoongi, open your eyes. Wake up!" Suga felt someone tugging on his arm. He thought he heard your voice but that was impossible. You were dead. You died because if him. "Yoongi please.."

Suga wondered why his body ached everywhere. Is this a new kind of pain his guilt made up to make sure he won't forget about you? About what he did. But aside from the pain, he found happiness in hearing your voice again. You were calling his name. Suga opened his eyes and saw fire blazing in front of him. He felt so numb and tired that he didn't want to be saved anymore but then your voice called his name again.

"Yoongi!" You cupped his face, he was bleeding from the cut he got from the collision. "Yoongi, don't close your eyes, look at me!"

"Y/n?" Suga was delirious. He didn't know what to believe anymore. He reached for your face with his bloody hands, you felt so real in his touch. Even the cuts on your face felt real, "Am I dreaming?"

Suga watched you shimmy out of your seat to rescue him, "Yoongi, we need to get out of here. Come on."

The both of you managed to get out of the blazing car in time. Suga fell to the ground and you fell with him, your back landing hard on the asphalt. Luckily, you ony had minor injuries but Suga had it worse. You didn't know what's wrong with him.

"Are you okay? Wait here, I'll call for help." You told him.

"I'm better than ever."Suga smiled at you as he pull you to his chest. He figured he was not dreaming when he felt your warmth enveloping him, "Don't go. Just stay with me."

"But you're bleeding." You were concerned because he was losing a lot of blood.

"I'm sorry y/n." Suga whispered and kissed your head, "I love you so much."

Your tears began to fall. "I thought you will never forgive me. I was so scared." You clutch on his bloody shirt as the rescuers began to arrive one by one.

Suga caressed your face, "I can't live without you, y/n. I'd rather die than be without you."