BTS Imagines

J-Hope ~ Letting Go

He's falling apart. You're falling apart with him.

Is this the end?

You look at each other and only see uncertainty. He threw hurtful words at you and you spit them back at him. Hoseok screamed, sweeping the table closest to him. Everything crashed down on the floor including the frame that held the happiest moment of your relationship. Your hands trembled as you picked it up among the shards of glass.

"_______.." Hoseok's voice lowered when he realized what he did.

You look at him with conviction in your eyes, "Is this all we're going to be? Are we at the end of the line?"

He flinched at your sharp words, turning his back against you. Hoseok was losing himself. He was never the same after hearing about the tragedy that ended his first love's life. You hated seeing him destroying himself like this but it hurts you the most because he was ruining himself for a woman who was not you.

Hoseok aimed his fists repeatedly at the dry wall, letting his knuckles bleed and atone for the fault that he didn't commit. You couldn't watch anymore.

"Stop it." You ran to him, wrapping your arms on his waist and resting your head on his back, "Stop hurting yourself, Hoseok, please.. just stop."

Hoseok listened to you for the first time. He dropped his fists to his side and crouched down on the floor. You slumped down beside him. No words came from the both of you as you witness the shattered remains of your love for each other. The love that you thought will save your relationship. Everything the two of you owned was broken and shattered, pieces of your memories together scattered across the floor.

"Why.. why are you being like this?" You began to cry again as you hit his chest weakly, "I just want us to be happy like before. I.. just want you to hold me and tell me we're going to be alright.."

Hoseok embraced you tightly, accepting every hit you throw at his chest because he deserved it. He deserved every bit of it for hurting you, for not being able to let go of his past and just give all his love to you. You buried your sorrow stricken face on his chest, making his shirt damp from your tears.

Hoseok rested his head on yours, "Can you trust me?"

You look up at his face, your eyes, red from crying. He held your face with his bruised hand and repeated his question, "Can you trust me?"

You weren't sure what he meant but still, you gave him everything, "I trust you."

"Then let go.." He told you.

"No." You held onto him, "I need you, Hoseok.. don't."

"You don't need someone like me." He said in a whisper, you felt his hands disappear from your back, "I'm a wreck. I don't want to drag you down with me, ________. Believe me when I told you I love you. When we first met, I was happy to find a person who loved me better than I love myself. But I'm so broken right now, ________. I can't return your love."

"Don't worry about that. We can work it out-" You choke on your tears.

"Let go, _________." He took your arms off him, "Just trust me. I will come back and be the man that you deserve."

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Two years have passed, you heard Hoseok became an idol, you saw him on TV. He seemed to be doing fine, he was smiling, that was enough for you. Even though he did promise you he'll come back, you couldn't bring yourself to show yourself infront of him and remind him of those painful memories. You are doing well holding yourself together too.

"________!" You looked back and found your co-worker waving at you. "Are you on your way home?"

"Actually, yes. It's been a long day at work so I just want to relax at home." You replied, flashing him an empty smile.

"I agree. With the project coming up, it's been hectic at the office." He laughed, "How about we go for coffee before you go home? My treat."

You agreed, letting yourself be surrounded by people again. You thought it would be fine to let go of your past too. You needed to start over.

"Wait here while I get our orders." He left you and went to the counter.
You checked your phone and a notification popped up,

BTS FIRST WIN ON MUSIC SHOW.

You smiled to yourself, you needed to let go of Hoseok too. You can't just keep stalking their group twitter. "I'm starting over. Goodbye."

Just then, the doors bursted open, catching the attention of the other customers, including you. Your eyes widened when you saw him. Just when you thought you'll never see him again.

"Hoseok." You stared at his figure, panting in front of you.

"I found you." He smiled like an idiot as he tried to catch his breath.

"W-Why are you here?" Your heart hammered in your chest when he took your hand.

"What do you mean? I promised you, didn't I?" Hoseok said, "I jumped off the van when I saw you and ran in the middle of traffic. Can you believe that? I ran in the middle of traffic!" He laughed.

"You changed a lot.." You stared at him, speechless, not believing your eyes. Is he really the Hoseok you knew from two years ago?

"I told you that when I come back, I'll be the man you deserve. Come on." He tugged on your hand. "I'm late. Just come with me for now. I'll need you there with me."

"Wait, Hoseok!" He yanked you off your seat. You look back at your co-worker who shouted after you. Your adrenaline began to kick in as you and Hoseok went past the door and started running on the street.

"Where are we going!" You tried to keep up with him.

"You trust me right?" Hoseok smiled brightly at you as he held your hand, "Just hold onto me and don't let go."

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I KNOW.. I said the next one will be a JiminxJungkook imagine but this J-hope imagine just popped in my head then I just started writing lol

I'm halfway done with JiminxJungkook ^_^