Y/n's POV:
The sound that came out of his parted lips after what I said was like all of the air being knocked out of him, and his heart falling to the ground, shattering in uneven, delicate, sharp pieces. My heart, is dangling by a small thread, throbbing with pain, and feeling as if it's covered in bruises that will never heal.
It's been a while since I've felt this not okay.
I gaze out the window, watching the snow fall delicately, making me become oblivious to the warm tears constantly streaming down my face, melting my makeup, heavy breathing leaving my lungs.
I'm not used to the sight of seeing Shawn cry, although I'm not looking I know his face is still buried in the pillow, trying to not make it obvious that I have hurt him more than I ever have before.
I am always pained seeing him like this, we used to be always happy, especially him with the brightest smile plastered across his face and he'd always say, "you do this to me y/n and I just can't get enough of it."
The corners of my mouth creep up the slightest at the words he used to always hum to me, but then quickly my face falls again, a quiet whimper leaving my mouth, causing me to clutch my heart as if that would make this okay.
"I never not cared about this relationship," the pillow muffles out his words, followed by sniffles and wails, "this relationship is everything to me y/n, everything."
"And you're just realizing this," I lower my head and cry into my hands. I cry so hard that i can't muster the strength to run after my breath, causing hiccup like sounds mixed with chokes of cries. My grib on where my heart is tightens and I convulse forwards as a result of all the intense emotions flying around inside me.
I'm a mess, I have never cried this hard in my life, I've never felt so hopeless and as if I cannot do anything to save what we've worked so hard for.
I am so consumed in my crying that I didn't even notice the shift of shawn next to me on the couch until I feel his strong arms wrap around me, holding me tightly as if to say, "we need each other to be whole."
I then cry into his chest with my arms gripping his shoulders, him rubbing my back, crying as well and Shushing me whispering, "everything will be okay, shhh."
"Will we ever be okay?" I say with loss of breath, trying to control myself enough to speak.
"When two people love each other y/n, there's nothing that can't be fixed."
________________________________________~woah guys I worked really hard on this and a part 2 was requested
~Leah
