Y/n's POV:
"Y/n, I just," I can hear the frustration in Shawn's voice, and I can practically see him running his hands through his hair in distress, but I can't let this make me step down, "I just don't have any more ways to apologize to you. Jesus I've never been more sorry in my life."
And by the way he's talking over the phone, I almost believed him, but just as my heart was about to get compassionate, my jaw clenched with anger and I gripped the cushion of the couch I was sitting on with my free hand.
"In our bed, in our house, you must think I'm insane if you think I could forgive you for something like that. Cheating me with another woman in my own sanctuary," just as I predicted, the hot tears run streaks through my concealer, and this time, I decide not to care, to just go numb, it makes the breaking away process easier.
Two weeks now I've been getting these phone calls, every day, non stop from shawn, and the script never changes.
He's messed up worse than any other time in his life, he wishes he could take it back, and he wants me back.
"I was-" he cuts himself off, scrambling for words, "it was dumb, completely meaningless, once I realized what I did was wrong, I left."
"You didn't realize anything until you got what you wanted, then it hit you finally, having sex with another woman is wrong!" I wipe my eyes and a choked sob leaves my lips and I just scoff, a growing anger towards myself at the fact I can't contain my emotions.
"Please."
Now he's the one who's beginning to sound choked up, and my friends told me it would be hard, but nothing could've prepared me for this.
"Being lonely, needing someone Shawn, isn't a good excuse, I won't accept it," I run my hands through my hair as I slouch with defeat into the cushions of the couch, feeling my own heart break for what seems like the hundredth time.
"You can't y/n, you can't throw us away," hearing him sound so desperate and trying not to react to comfort him is like trying to ignore a knife in your back.
"Why would I do something that's already done."
____________________________look at you!!! You strong woman!!! You didn't take him back for anything!! A while back I got a request to do more imagines where she doesn't take him back so here it is lovelies!! That request was specifically done by dayummendes :-)
Have a beautiful day/night
~leah
