Y/n's POV:
The rain that's hurling at the window is quieter than the sound of Shawn's and I's heartbeats, both of us just staring at each other, with sorrow, with desperation, but my stare turns into a teary one, one that is the last red flag of this relationship.
"But you know what I mean right?" Shawn gaze turns to the rain, and I remember him once saying that when it rains, that's when he felt most inspired, most motivated, but I guess that faulted today.
"I get it, I understand, I see it too," I hug my knees tighter and shut my eyes so tight to the point where it's practically scrunching up my face, every word I'm saying being pained and torturous.
"It's just I don't know what to say anymore, we sit here and we talk about everything except what needs to be addressed," Shawn hints at the growing tension this relationship holds under many layers of awkward small talk, and the direct confrontation is like a sting to the heart.
"There isn't much to say when a relationship is dying," I wipe my eyes and try to look at anything but him, feeling hopeless with the fact that there's nothing I can do to save this wilting love, "and I'm sick of hearing you say you love me when I know you don't, there's just nothing else to say."
I wish I didn't but I look up to see a wave of hurt cross over him, and he looked as if he was about to apologize but quickly stops himself, "well as long as you feel how wrong it is too, I'm sorry I kept lying to you."
"words that were once supposed to mean so much have turned empty shawn and I never thought in my life that could be possible," more tears manage to slip from my eyes and I drop my stare once more.
"Then it won't be those words I say y/n, rather goodbye, I don't want to cause you more harm," grabbing his jacket and keys he makes his way to the door, but hesitates before leaving, "just know that those words weren't always meaningless when they were directed at you, don't question for a moment whether at some point I was madly in love with you, because trust me, I was."
_____________________________________________________________________________________I didn't think through this one much at all I just knew I needed to post something and I've been sulking and crying because weird things are happening with my friend so I'm sorry it wasn't as good as I'd like it to be.
~Leah
