You Again

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*Fani's POV*

Oh my God Faniiii!!! Why did you just asked about his dead girlfriend to hiiim?! Stupid, naive Fani!! What the hell is wrong with you?! You know how Niall is now! The love of his life died & he was totured & you just asked the most stupidest question ever to him!! What the hell?!

"Eerr...You know what? Forget it. Let's continue with our math." I said trying to change the subject.

"I just remembered something....I...I need to go somewhere for a sec. I'll...i'll meet you after school." Niall said packing his bag & walk out of class. It's a good thing Mr. John is not here. Or not he'll not understand anything. But, before I could run after him, I felt guilty running all over my body. I have goosebumps cause I was sooooo stupid. First, weird feelings towards him & now guilty. What is wrong with me? I shouldn't asked that!

I slammed my head over & over on my desk feeling infinite guilty inside me. What am I gonna do? His upset. He just walked away from me saying he has somewhere to go whereas he was upset about me. I'm pissing him off. I should get to know him slowly & carefully. Not to bring this kind of sensitive things to him. Ugh. Oh God help me!

*Niall's POV*

After what Fani just asked me, my heart sinks deep. So deep that I can't take it anymore. Why must she asked that? But, it's not her fault. She didn't know anything about Tessa. I don't blame her. She knew Tessa died then why does she have to ask that?

I can't hold any longer. I need to go somewhere. I need to let out this anger, this...this hurt & painful feelings out of mh chest. I need to getaway from people like mother & Fani. I need sometime alone for only me. I need to get my mind empty. I can't stand it anymore. If Fani didn't asked something like that, I would've not been this way. This pain in my chest stays too long inside of me that I need to let it out now!

I walk faster than ever towards my car. God...please help me! I put my car ket into the ignition & starts the engine as soon as I turned my key around.

I reversed my car. I hit the trash. I don't care about anything right now. What important is that I need to get this feelings out of me. NOW!

I drove my car to the drive way. I didn't even look right or left. I don't give a shit. A white car horns at me. I told you, I don't give a shit or anything. I drove & drove faster than ever. I almost hit a guy. But, fortunate him, he ran faster before I could hit him.

Finally, I'm in the higway. There are not many cars on weekdays. So, I took advantage & speed my car. I knew that I'm over limit. My speed was 120 km/hour. I was waay over limit. Before I realised that tears already streamed down my pale cheeks. Finally, I cried. For months I tried to hold it & stay strong but I can't.

I drove faster & faster. Didn't think about the value of my life. I just drove.

"You don't have to do this!" Suddenly Tessa appeared trying to stop me. Nobody can stop me at this kind of situation.

"You can't stop me." I said to Tessa. My tears still streaming down my cheeks.

"Watch me." Tessa said threatening me. Who is she? Who is she trying threatening me?

Tessa dissapeared & I continue my drive with the same speed limit. Cars, trucks & lorries horning me repeatedly. But, I don't give a damn! Try & stop me! & I won't stop! I need to find a place where I can go away from the people I love. I don't want to hurt them. Especially mother. I don't want mother to see me at this state. No.

I drove faster & faster & faster. Suddenly, I saw a girl running & crossing infront of my car. I was shocked! I didn't want to hurt her! I turned my car to the right. Then, hit a car. Hard. I was spinning quickly. Then, I stopped. My car stopped when I got hit by a tree. My sight started to blurry.

"I'm sorry. I have to do this. I'm sorry." I turned my head weakly. I saw Tessa outside my car crying & apologizing.

"Tessa." Is all I can say. Then, darkness takes over.