You Again

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*Fani's POV*

How could I did this? As far as I know, I am a very loyal person. I have never ever cheat on anyone before. And I would never. Ever. How could I did this kind of things? What makes me this way?

Maybe Niall made me this way....

What?! No! That's bullshit. I became this way cause I was to pissed off of Niall. My heart made me do stupid things again & again. What is wrong with me?

What is wrong with you Fani? You never learn aren't you?

Stupid mind just never helps.

Well maybe because you forgot to bring it with you?

What the Fuck is wrong with my mind?! What happen to me? If Niall knows about this, maybe he will never love me & I will get hurt again. Will Niall left me because of this? Niall may never know about this from me but he will of course hear it from Jake. What am I gonna do?

Wait a minute......Why am I feeling worry about this whereas Niall never tell me the truth about his dead girlfriend Tessa?

Yes. Dead.

Call me bad or a bitch. But yes. I did just said the word, dead. Niall must've have been so into her death that he even thought of me as Tessa & not me as Fani. How am I not pissed off when he made me believes that he loves me? The truth is he doesn't. And he never will. He only love Tessa. And Tessa only.

If I arrive home later, Eric will say "I told you so." at me. Yes. I deserve that. I am a stupid naive girl after all. All this time I thought I've changed to be a better girl. A stronger & more independent girl. But, after all what happened today, maybe I can't change after all.

Jake should've have stopped me back there. He knew what I'm doing & he was the one who started it. Ugh. Maybe it's my fault to. Okay not maybe. But it is my fault. Is this consider as cheating when we didn't even realise what we're doing?

If you consider it as cheating. Then yes, it is.

Thank you brain for telling me that.

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I was finally infront of my house. Still in the car, I took a deep breath so that I won't cry again & just incase Eric will ask me one million one questions, I will stay strong.

I walk out from my car, then towards my home. Slowly as I walk towards it while I'm thinking what am I gonna do if Eric knew about what happened today.

I turned the doorknob slowly & opened the door. I opened it carefully so that the door won't make that annoying, loud, squeaky sound. Thank God it doesn't made it.

I turned my head from right to left. Then, I saw Eric sitting on the couch on the living room, watching Spongebob. I sigh a relieve when I knew Eric doesn't hear me went in.

I quickly climbed upstairs when the stairs made a loud squeaky sound.

"Fani? Is that you?" Great. My mission to avoid him for a day has been failed due to the squeaky sound my stairs have made.

I didn't answer him. Instead, I just continued to climb upstairs like nothing has ever happen.

"Fani." I pursed my lips when I heard Eric's voice behind me. "You didn't answer me."

I squeeze my eyes tightly, took a deep breath & ran up the stairs quickly. I didn't even look back to see Eric's face.

"Fani!" Eric ran after me.

Before he could get into my room, I slammed the door infront of him & locked it.

Eric turned the doorknob & knock on my door over & over again.