Demons without Desire

Let's talk

I poked Zak in the cheek as he laid on the bed beside me glaring at the ceiling.

"Why are you so mad?" I whispered taking in his tense jaw.

"I'm fine." He ground out. I sighed and sat up away from him causing him to groan and roll onto his side away from me.

"I don't want to talk about it. Okay?" He asked.

"No, not okay. You're angry or upset and it clearly has something to do with Aaron."

"How would you even kn-"

"I'm a woman Zak. I naturally know everything. So.. What's it gonna be? You gonna tell me? Or do I pull it out of Aaron?" I challenged.

"I'm fi-"

"Aaron it is then." I slipped off the bed and was pulled back onto the bed by my top.

"Okay. Fine. You're not gonna like it." He grunted sitting up.

I took his cap and put it on my head waiting but his face went from annoyed to amused.

"You look adorable.." He sighed.

"Still waiting here.. Come on." I coaxed.

"Fine..."

I took a sip of water from his bottle that he had began pulling the label off in discomfort.

"I think Aaron... Has a little crush on you." He said making me pause and look down the RV before looking back at Zak.

"Quit playing. Just tell me the dang truth."

"I am.. I think he has got something there and well..."

I waited for him to elaborate but yet again he fell quiet. "If that's it when why is your panties in a wad, I- you don't trust me?" I asked.

"What? No! I mean yes! Yes I do trust you. But no that's not all of it."

"Tell me Zak." I growled getting impatient with him.

"He pretty much said I'm only keeping you around as a fuck buddy. That you being here is convenient for me cause I get laid when I want and that if I had any feelings towards you... I'd let you go and let you find someone who is actually going to look after. Properly." He muttered.

I blinked and looked down at Aaron and Bacon laughing.

"I- is that how you see me? As your fuck buddy?" I asked.

"What?! No! No." He frowned grabbing my hands.

"Why do I feel like there is a but coming?"

"No buts. I just wanted to be honest with you. I'm no angel."

"That's clear."

"But I do care about you. More than I have for anyone in a long time. A very long time. It isn't about physical contact, that proves it right?" He asked.

"Yeah. Obviously after the last few weeks." I muttered.

"And this morning yeah? Us? Together?"

"Zak I believe you about the whole physical thing but do you actually feel like..." I paused trying to find the words.

I swallowed feeling a little nervous to ask this but I had to..

"Are you... Are we? Do you think he's right? Do you think we shouldn't be together?" I asked getting upset.

"Call me selfish. But I don't want to be without you. So no.. I won't let you go. No matter what he says." Zak replied gesturing his head down the RV.

"Good." I sighed with relief and squeezed his hand tightly. "Good."

"You don't feel like he is right?" Zak asked curiously.

"Hell no. No. Absolutely not. I couldn't have help from anyone else other than you. I don't trust anyone else like o trust you... Zak nobody would have understood me, or my body for that matter. Sure the whole thing with Goldfield went south and you lied to me for a long time about it. But in my eyes you've redeemed yourself and more by looking after me, protecting me and being there when I needed it the most. Nobody knows us.. Like me know each other.. Yeah?" I asked unsure.

But his smile confirmed that I was on the right track.

"Then no, I wouldn't want to be with anyone else. I don't need anyone else and I certainly don't care for negative opinions about us when we both know better. Got it?" I asked him.

"You don't th-"

"Ahh! Unless it's positive. I don't want to hear it. We both know where we stand and we are both adults yes?"

He nodded.

"Then why are we listening to other people who aren't involved in our relationship?"

His shoulders sagged with relief, he pulled my knuckles to his lips and kissed them before pulling me into him.

"Now can we please go back to snuggling? Properly. Instead of me snuggling a brick wall."

He smirked and flicked on the small TV in the RV. After a shuffle and a tangle of our arms and legs we were settled watching Mad Max.

"Pssst." I whispered to Zak making him smile.

"Yes?"

"Gonna tell me you love me yet?"

"I'm thinking about it." He chuckled.

"Well don't give yourself a nose bleed." I teased making him snigger.

"Shut up and watch the film." He whispered.

"Rude."

He flipped his phone out and showed me a picture of us last night "Now that is rude, cause at that moment I was buried in y-"

"Yes yes. Shh." I hushed. "Shut up and watch the film." I replied making him smile and squeeze my body closer to his.

I didn't care for the film, I just wanted to be laid with him watching the world go by from the little window at the bottom of the bed and that's what I intense to do.

No matter who said what or different about us. As long as we are honest then we will remain solid.