Demons without Desire

Nothing like her yet..

Zak PoV...

Hearing the front door slam I doubled over feeling a wave of sickness, like the wind out of my sails I had nothing left to give, she went. Anger took over my body as I trashed the kitchen until I sank to the floor pushing the heel of my palms into my eyes.

"Fuck! Fuck! F-" I breathed deeply trying to calm down.  I removed my hands to see my demolishing work on the kitchen. Seeing smashed glass and thrown paperwork I looked around the kitchen replaying the scene again.

But Kaylee changed, she turned into another woman, brown hair, green eyes, taller, thinner, she was screaming at me as I tried to explain that I couldn't have her here anymore over an attachment.

She changed into a blonde haired woman, only she slapped me. I was dealing with a possession at the time.

She changed, a woman black hair, tattoos, she was crying as she grabbed her things after be attacked in my house..

My mind replayed all the women that had blown through here, the women that had walked in knowing full well what we were.. Yet always seemed so surprised when things went south.

A quick fumble, friends with benefits, whatever people call it these days. Meaningless mindless sex. A way to relieve stress and anger.. But one person stood out from that all. Kaylee, she wasn't meaningless. I looked to the fridge and saw the photos missing.

"No, no no." I panicked crawling across the floor and sifting through the paperwork. I found the photos that I had knocked off, I had knocked them off when I laid hands on her.

"You're a dumb fuck." I growled thumping a fist on my knee as I sat looking at a photo of Kaylee and myself at the Goldfield hotel, dressed up as a cowboy and saloon girl. Her leg posed between mine as she tilted my chin to look up at me..

I knew that day she was different, the way she acted, the way she treated me..  Since starting Ghost Adventures I had my fair share of women, never on a shortage. One every night, different one every night, a dinner, drink and back to hotel.. After a roll around and shower I was walking out the door with a wink and a smirk.

An asshat. A player. A fuckboy. Hell I've been called that and worse..

But Kaylee? Oh she brought something back in me.. She restored something. Something broke.

She brought back excitement, happiness, confusion and more. She brought back the chase of dating.. Something I had lost. We played around the chess board until we both stepped on and then? Check mate..

"I'm so mad at you right now." I spoke to her photo before putting it on the worktop before pulling myself off the floor and tidying up.

I brushed up the glass before bringing out the Hoover and electronic Hoover. Setting one off and using the other I hoovered every inch of the floor to make sure no single shard glass remained.

Fixing the paperwork on the side and binning the now bruised fruit that I had thrown across the room. Picking up the photos I wanted to bin it. I wanted to forge everything that had happened.

She had made me vulnerable. Me? Zak. Demon hunter.. Fucking vulnerable.

I stuck it back on the fridge and went into garden. Looking at Gracie sat by the Buddha with her head upon its knee I sighed.

Gracie would miss her..

I shook my head and pulled out my phone to ring her. Getting to her number my finger hovered..

No. No I won't. I told her.. I told her if she went. If she felt anything for me she would have stayed.

She went. She left. Not me.

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I lost track of time and found Gracie sat beside me whining. "Sorry Gray. Let's go to bed."

I got up and headed in whilst Gracie raced to bed. Hell I'd need her on the bottom of the bed tonight. Or even on Kaylee's side.

Shutting off the lights to the kitchen I cut off the scene in my mind again. She was everywhere, she touched everything. Nothing felt like it was mine anymore as I passed her hoodie, picking it up I carried it through the house.

Still smelt of that sweet fucking perfume I love so much.

Taking a look at the lounge I shut it off and walked to my bedroom. I just needed to shower and put earphones in until I passed out. That's what I had to do..

Taking a breath I walked into my room and froze seeing her..

Stood in my top with puffy eyes fiddling with her fingers. My heart swelled in my chest painfully as I looked at her. I watched her eyes hit the floor in upset.

Dropping the hoodie I strode over and grabbed her arms making her look up. A strangled whimper left her lips as she looked at my face.

Pulling her into my chest I hugged her tightly as she broke down crying on me.

"I'm sorry."

"Shh.." I hushed her burying my face into her hair.

"I'd go to hell and back for you Zak. I would. I love you." She cried.

"I know. What the hell has happened to us?" I asked myself.

"Nobody said us investigating was going to be easy..." She sobbed clinging onto my shirt.

"Don't worry about anything now.. I love you. Just remember that." I reminded her.

She nodded and fell quiet as I held her to me.

This woman was doing a number on me.. I blinked hard as her energy mixed mine. She never left me.. That's all that mattered. She never left.