Demons without Desire

You're the only one

We had set up a little camp, miles out and away from everyone and every thing. Zak had calmed down enough now to make me appreciate the day.

"This is cute." I smiled looking at the little blanket and cooler he had. We were under trees higher up on the mountain overlooking the dusty dry desert ground.

"You think?" Zak asked sitting down beside me.

"I do.. It's perfect." I answered looking across at him as he laid on the blanket.

"You can remove my top now.. You shouldn't feel self conscious."

"It was more the fact he was looking at my boobs. They are only for one person to admire.." I replied making him smirk.

"Damn right. You got your phone?"

I pulled it from my pocket and handed it to him as he slipped his turning them both off he put them beside the cooler.

"I don't want anyone disturbing us. Just us and nature yeah?"

I nodded happily, I had no problem with that but Zak was a busy man so for him to do that... I knew he was desperate to relax.

"Why is there no trees down there but there is up here?" I asked him sitting cross legged.

"The heat from the ground, no moisture? I honestly have no clue but I imagine with the mountain that there are minerals and water inside it. But the ground down there has been bone dry."

"Oh." I nodded kind of understanding.

"You thought anymore on yesterday?" He asked.

I pushed my mouth to the side and looked away from him "I don't know what to do for the best Zak.. And that's honest. Say I do work for you, when Ash comes back I'm out of a job. I do hope she comes back, I really do but I don't want to be a Get By person. It's a shitty thing to do."

"I don't think she is coming back." He responded sitting up.

"But there is a chance she might. I mean, come on Zak. She's only just began dealing with this and you wanna fill her place already?"

"I have to. The channel want me to, Ash understands."

"And Jay? Does he understand?" I asked.

"He didn't at first.. But he's realised how deep this is affecting Ash and now he understands why it is important to keep her away for a while or even for good."

"I could be the next Ash, Zak. I could be the next one to be taken out.. Then what?"

"I don't know.. I really don't know. I just thought it would get your name out there with the fans. So that when the time comes for you to go at it alone. You'll have a small base of fans." He replied.

I saw where he was coming from but it still put in a position of having a taste of the dreams, with a chance of having it snatched at any moment.

Pretty sucky.

"Anyway we aren't supposed to be talking about this. Good and relaxing stuff yeah?" He asked.

I nodded with a smile and leant against his arm. "Love you Bagans."

"Love you too Sheila."

Always with the Sheila..

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The afternoon soon flew by, we had talked about everything from Gracie to work. There was no point in avoiding the subject, it's a big part of our relationship to ignore. Zak was a workaholic, I was just as bad when I wasn't dealing with after effects of a demon or helping Zak with his attachments.