Demons without Desire

5 sticks 1 result

"Keep drinking." Zak ordered as I sat in the bedroom.

"No, I don't want any more water." I moaned pushing the bottle in his hand away.

"We haven't got a choice right now. You got 5 tests to pee on." He answered.

I laid back on the bed and pulled a pillow across my face hoping that nature would do its thing and I'd need a pee soon.

Bacon had gotten a call from Aaron and asked him to come hang out. I reminded myself to thank Aaron later, he would have done that so Zak and myself had some privacy to do this.

"Maybe you should do one.." I suggested.

"Why?"

"Cause you haven't had your period yet and you're snappy as hell." I replied to Zak making him pull the pillow off me and hit me with it.

"This isn't funny. It's time to be serious."

"Yeah well that's probably the main problem. This is too serious and my body is not playing ball." I frowned.

"Want me to run the tap? Or tickle you?"

I debated the tickling but eventually shook my head. "I'll be ready soon. Lay with me?"

I saw the look in his face, he didn't want to but he did anyway.

"I just need to know.." He whispered holding my hand.

"I know. So do I but how is us having go at each other going to help?" I asked.

He shook his head "It won't. "

"You don't want kids.. Do you Zak?" I asked.

"I've never been with someone long enough to really think of that." He admitted honestly. "You?"

"I've never known. I guess I always thought I'd find the one and we would both just start trying for a baby than it be sprung upon us. Like this."

"And.. Am I the one?" He asked tucking my hair behind my ear.

I smiled "I'd like to think so. But something tells me that if these come
back positive.. I won't be the one for you anymore."

"Whatever the outcome.. We will deal with it."

"How? Abortion?" I asked.

"Is that something you would want?" He asked frowning slightly.

I shook my head "As much as you'd probably hate me for it. I don't think I could. Because it's a part of you and I'd never want to hurt you." I answered. He wiped the tear that came with that admission.

"You have cried so much lately. I don't like seeing you sad all the time."

"It's hard not to be. When I have the prospect of having a baby and losing you."

Zak pulled me into his embrace and wrapped his arms around me tightly "Sorry for having a go at you and reacting the way I did.."

"It's understandable."

"It's a dick move." He countered.

"Maybe but you thought I had planned this. I guess we should be grateful that Bacon joked.

"Hmm.."

"Would you still love me? If I was?" I asked looking up to see his face. Zak nodded.

"I don't think I couldn't. I guess the reason I've never wanted kids was because of my upbringing and the bullying." He said massaging my scalp.

"But being a parent is about setting the sand for what you would do differently." I replied.

"Hmm. My fear would be ending up like my dad. A dead beat."