Demons without Desire

Its time to lean on me

I woke in the middle of the next morning to find Zak perched on the end of the bed watching me sleep. I looked at him for a while reliving the experience from last night, I wanted to tell him but the text from Billy stopped me doing that. Something happened to him..

Without a word I sat up looking at him carefully before holding my hand out towards him. He pondered for a few seconds before placing his hand into mine, I pulled him into me and hugged him tightly. When the same force was returned I knew for a fact, that I couldn't lay any of my problems on him..

I was awake until dawn myself after setting up a mini investigation and recording it on his laptop camera.. I had no real recording equipment. But I had a spirit box and digital recorder. Of course I didn't get a dime from the spirit box and hadn't checked the recorder. I wanted to do that later when my mind wasn't so hazy from sleep.

I took off Zak's hat and tossed it across the room burying my fingers into his hair, I waited for as long as I needed.. When his grip loosened I knew he was feeling better and released him from my bear hug.

He sat back holding my face in his hands, I wanted to ask him how he was, what happened, how he was feeling. But I also knew he needed time so with that in mind I slipped out of bed and went into the bathroom.

Turning on the shower I went into my own head and placed a fresh towel on the side along with clothes and washbag. Keeping myself busy I went into the bedroom and crouched in front of Zak undoing his boots and taking them off. I hated feet... With a passion but I knew my own dislikes weren't important and simply pulled off his socks. He hadn't moved since I got out the bed and didn't move until I was pulling off his coat.

I reached for his wrist to remove his watch when his hand grabbed my wrist hard. I bit the inside of my lip to hold back my whimper at how tight he was holding it. I gasped for air when I realised he wasn't going to release it any time soon, hearing me make a nose his hand let go instantly and a sorry look filled his face.

I took his wrist and removed his watch and rings carefully placing them away in his case. "You need to get into the shower." I spoke softly helping him up off the bed and into the bathroom. Undoing his belt I pulled it off and placed it on the side, unbuttoning his pants I took them off him leaving him stood in his boxers.

"Zak.. Please." I urged bringing himself out of his mind he took off his boxers and climbed into the shower.

I returned back to the bed and sat there waiting for him to finish up. After nearly 30 minutes the shower stopped and a further 10 minutes before he emerged dressed in the clothes I had put out for him. He came over to my side of the bed looking down at me, figuring he was still pretty much out of it I moved over into the cold spot of the bed letting him sleep on the warm side. His hands pulled me back into him and held me tightly against his body

"Babe.." I whispered as he pushed his face into my neck.

The more I watched him the more upset I was beginning to feel, if he couldn't control this then I had no hope in hell at being able to control it.

"They gave me messages from my deceased family." He spoke for the first time. I shifted my head to look at him.

"I- Are you sure?" I asked nervously. I didn't want him to think I was doubting him for a minute but we both knew how demons and spirits could get into your mind and use things against you.

"Yeah, I'm sure." He mumbled.

"I want to hold you instead." I whispered pulling out of his grasp I laid on my back and pulled him onto my chest wrapping my arms around him. Whilst he laid on me coming to terms with what he was told I trailed my fingers up and down his back causing a sigh to leave his body.

"I think they asked for you.." He spoke making me stop.

"Huh?"

"We did a spirit box session.. It asked for the girl." He answered.

"Could have meant Ash? Or that girl who was there for interviews?" I suggested remembering I saw a woman at the manor the day before but he shook his head.

"I think they meant you.. I'm sure of it because as soon as it said girl your face filled my mind. Only your face." He said sighing.

I swallowed and wondered if something had hitched a ride on him back to this hotel from yesterday afternoon and that is who I saw this morning. I pondered that thought and then wondered if it was because of all the crap I had been through, that perhaps it was just some residual energy from all that. It had laid dormant for a few weeks but now I was pushing spiritual energy around that it has resurfaced?

"How was your night?" He asked.

"Good." I answered without thinking. I knew it was a lie but how could I tell him when he needed me. How could I look to him for help when he was desperate for support and reassurance now? He needed me as much as I needed him. Only his need outweighed mine simply because mine could have been my mind..

Zak had an experience at the manor, not a good one but he had one and it meant he needed my full attention and that is exactly what I planned to give him.