One Last Rose

Justin's Diary

Justin's Diary
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Justin's P.O.V

"You've got 1 year in jail."

*2 YEARS LATER*
Dear Diary,

I haven't talked to YN for a long time. Last time I saw her, she went to live with her parents in Chicago. It was a long story.

Basically, YN told her parents that I got arrested 2 years ago, and they moved away because they forced her to ignore and delete me from her life.

Once they've let me out of jail, I finished my believe tour, so I didn't have the time to meet her. But there's been many ups and downs this year, which have given her more things to hate me for. The media haven't been supportive either, continuously judging me by my mistakes and our tragic break up.

She's been doing well, she released her own film, which she starred in and went on tour with the cast. She's been busy too, but I should have put in the effort. My heart literally dropped when she actually went against me. Probably because of her friends, especially Taylor.

Hard times. But I had time to focus on my beliebers and my career, not losing hope whist touring. I've released my journals, and several video clips. The all that matters video had a massive impact on YN, she hated it. Her tweet was,
"Moved on, have you...?"
I was going through so much, especially at the end of my tour... I've had nothing to focus on anymore.
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I've left it there, and picked up my notebook in which I wrote my music journals. And with sorrow and pain in my heart, I began scribbling.

"Lately you've been busy, wondering if you miss me
Why did you go against me? I just wanna know..
How come you act so different?
Talk to me I'll listen
All the love I'm giving
Don't act like you don't know"

I dropped my pen as tears started dripping down my cheeks. Staring at the window at the drops of rain; gaining even more inspiration I started writing again.

"I was out there on the road
Life out of control
She became a victim to my busy schedule
And I know that it's not fair
That don't mean that I don't care
This one's dedicated to the girl out there"

I grabbed my phone and started tweeting.

" 'This one's dedicated to the girl out there..' "
And attached a picture of me with my guitar looking hurt and broken.

I grabbed my pen once more and wrote some more.

"Girl you always catch me at the bad time
When I know you probably think it's a lie
I know I told you last time was the last time
How could you pull the plug and let me flatline?"

Sighed and bit my bottom lip. I continued as my aching arm struggled with my next thoughts.

"How could you pull the plug and let me flatline?
Cause when I hit you, you don't even reply
How could you pull the plug and let me flatline?
Not breathing, what is it I'm not seeing
Said she's leaving, damn I can't believe it
It's like my heart's bleeding knowing that you don't need me
Shut my heart down, now I don't know what imma do now.."

My heart hurt. Badly. I felt as if I could stab myself. I didn't want to live anymore. Not without YN. I hate myself. And all my stupid actions. I've hurt her, and there's no way she could forgive me. And secondly there's no way her parents will allow me to see her again.

"I was out there on the road
Life out of control
She became a victim to my busy schedule
And I know that it's not fair
But that don't mean that I don't care
This one's dedicated to the girl out there."

I stopped and got back on twitter.
"New song coming soon guys. Get ready. #Flatline"

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*that Sunday midnight.*

An hour after I release 'Flatline' I receive a text unexpectedly.

It read............

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