Finding the Missing Piece: Book 6

Chapter Eighty-Five

Katniss POV-

I gasp awake, crying hysterically.

My throat is raw and I'm all sweaty but I'm not sure why.

I look around the dark room, feeling like someone would be here to comfort me but no one is here but me.

Peeta POV-

"She will come back, Peeta. She wouldn't do that to you or the kids, even if she doesn't remember you." Mason tells me.

"Well, if seems like she would." I say truthfully.

"She's just lost and confused."

"And alone." I add in.

Also my fault.

"Peeta, you know Katniss. She wouldn't do that and even if she did she would come around eventually. She just needs time." Bristol says.

I groan, "I just don't understand her. She went from wanting to do whatever it took to get her memories back, absolutely anything to not even wanting to come home with us. In just a few seconds too."

"Maybe something you said threw her off or something. I don't know." Mason suggests.

"Yeah, I know exactly what it was too. I told her all the bad things that's happened. That's what clicked with her. When she realized our life wasn't a fairy tale."

"Isn't that what they say to do though? Tell them all the good stuff. Build some trust and eventually if they ended up losing their memories for good, then you fill them in later." Mason says.

"I don't know. I was just trying to protect her from hurting. I feel like I would want to know all the good things thats happened to me before I knew the bad."

"You also know that sometimes Katniss is the opposite. Maybe she would've wanted to know the bad first?" Bristol says.

"And I didn't want to break her heart."

"Well, I do think she will come back soon."

I sigh, "I don't even care if she comes back for me as long as she came back for the kids. Every night Rye wakes up crying and he cries the cry he uses when he wants Katniss."

"Maybe he's just doing it because he's hungry?" Bristol says.

"It's not that he's hungry. He has a total different cry for that." I say truthfully.

"Just keep trying, Peeta. You're doing your best." Bristol says.

"But what if it's not good enough. Willow is only going to enjoy this for so long before she doesn't want to spend another second with me. She already misses Katniss."

"It'll all work out, Peeta. It always does." She tells me.

"Yeah, Peeta."

"I don't know. Maybe it won't this time." I say with a shrug.

"You can't give up hope."

"I'm not but I can't keep lying to myself or my daughter."

"It's not lying. You're just protecting her."

"That's what got me in this position in the first place."

"So are you going to tell Willow?"

"I'm not sure what I'm gonna do. I want to go find her is what I want."

"Then what's holding you back?"

"The kids. I can't leave them. They've both been left too many times this year."