Finding the Missing Piece: Book 6

Chapter Ninety-Seven

Peeta POV-

"Peeta, who is that?" Katniss asks me.

My heart sinks, "You don't remember." I say, feeling tears well up in my eyes.

Mrs. Everdeen backs away and Willow climbs out of Katniss's lap.

"No." She confirms, shaking her head.

I feel everyone's eyes on me and a flood of anger and embarrassment runs through me.

I close my eyes, "Excuse me for a moment." I say and walk out of the nursery and across the hallway to our bedroom.

I slam the door shut behind me and I go insane, bursting into tears.

I punch the bed repeatedly and I grab a pillow and I scream into it as loud as I possibly can and I cry.

"Aghhh!" I yell beating the pillow with my fists.

I pull my hair as hard as I can and I bury my face into that stupid pillow.

I hate myself.

I thought that she remembered and I just made a big scene only to find out that she doesn't remember anything more than what I told her.

I'm such an idiot.

I got my hopes up and Willow's and Mrs. Everdeen's too.

I can't do this.

I close my eyes as tightly as I can and that's when I start gagging.

My stomach and my head hurt so bad I can barely take it and I feel light headed.

A thousand horrible thoughts run through my head and I realize I need to calm down or else Willow and Rye might not have a mom or a dad.

A few minutes later I hear the door open and I expect it to be Willow or Mrs. Everdeen but it's not.

"Peeta?" I hear Katniss say softly.

I don't bring my head up, I am not letting her see me like this.

And besides that I still haven't forgiven her for what she said last night.

I know she could've said a thousand times more or worse things to me but what she said attacked everything that I've ever tried to be for her.

Absolutely all of it.

I know I'm nobody special but I respect her and I want her to live like she deserves and for her to tell me to try something else.

To tell me that she doesn't love me-that she just feels sorry for me, how could I so quickly forgive that?

"Peeta?" She says again, coming closer and closing the door behind her.

"What?" I say, trying to sound like I'm fine but I'm not.

I'm angry.

"Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. Please go." I say.

She sighs, "I thought that we could look through this box of pictures together. I feel okay, you know." Katniss says, sitting on the edge of the bed.

"I'm glad but I don't want to look at the pictures. You go ahead." I say.

I don't want to see us when we were happy.

When we had just fallen in love or when Willow was a baby.

I don't want to see her happy and actually in love with me only to look at her now and see that she's not even the same person she was.