Left Behind

Unprepared

June 19th, 31 weeks-

After a few weeks Jessica was finally able to find a doctor. She had a few visits to make sure she liked him, but no doctor could compare to her last. Her new doctor didn't know her past or present. She was becoming more anxious again, worried for the baby. Even though she knew everything was just fine.

Sarah tagged along with Jessica for the day. After her appointment they were going to go eat. Aspen can along as well.

"Babe!" Aspen points to Jessica's belly as she pulls up her shirt for the doctor.

Sarah and Jessica laugh.

"Yes, honey. Jessie is having a baby!"

"Oooo" Aspen smiles

"How are you feeling, Jessica?" Sarah says to her. Jessica seemed a bit nervous

"I'm okay... just a little anxious."

"It will be all good."

Jessica's new doctor comes in. He was younger. He was very nice to Jessica. She warmed up to him quickly.

"Your Baby is about two pounds already. She's getting pretty big." Her doctor says

Jessica chuckles "I can see" She says looking a her now large stomach. It had grown a lot in the last few weeks.

"That's good. Everything looks just fine. In two weeks we can do an ultrasound." He adds

Jessica nods then sits up.

"Have you come up with a birth plan yet? Do you know what you are leaning towards?"

"For sure at the hospital." She says

"Natural?"

Jessica shakes her head "I don't know yet. I haven't really thought about it." She says softly. In this moment she felt so unprepared. She never thought about this stuff.

"That's quite alright. Are you are feeling okay?" He asks

She shrugs her shoulders "I guess the usual discomfort and light sleeping."

"That's all normal. Just keep doing what you're doing because everything is looking fantastic. Ten more weeks. It will come quick."
He says

//-//

Knowing that her baby was okay always put Jessica in a good mood. She was able to settle down her mind and enjoy herself.

Sarah drove them over to a little cafe.

"Aspen, can you say Jessie?" Sarah says to Aspen to was babbling in her high chair.

She shakes her head and smiles at Jessica.

"Yessie" She says

"Wow! Good job, Aspen. Pretty impressive." Jessica says holding out her hand.

Aspen hits it with all she can and giggles.

"She loves you, Jess. You're so amazing around kids." Sarah says

"I guess I've had practice with the nieces and nephews." She smirks

Sarah looks at Jessica then back at Aspen. She sighs and becomes quite. After a while Jessica notices that something is bothering her.

"Sarah, are you okay?" She asks

Sarah looks at Jessica with watery eyes. "No..."

"Why?" She asks, concerned.

"Jessica, I've never said that I'm sorry."