Left Behind

Sorry

May 8th 2010-

Jessica could barely get out of bed. She was so tired. She hadn't slept since her father had died. She felt like a part of her was missing.

She had pains all day in her stomach. She didn't think much about something being wrong with the pregnancy. She kept feeling like a failure and a disappointment. It made her sick thinking about what her father would think and what he might be thinking in heaven about Jessica being pregnant.

Jessica's home was filled with flowers, containers of food, and people coming in and out giving the Lange's their condolences.

Jessica hated all the attention and pitty. She appreciated it and understood that people did it out of the kindness of their heart, but Jessica was so torn from the loss of her father. He was her best friend. They did everything together. His death was so sudden. Jessica just wanted more time...

Each hour without her dad was so painful. Jessica's attitude and personality shifted. She just found out she was pregnant a week before her fathers death. It was Danny's.... Danny was very supportive of Jessica and always there for her helping her through the heartache as her father died. But once she found out she was pregnant she refused to tell Danny. She didn't know how he would react. So much was going on in her mind. What if he got mad at left her. She didn't know what she would do. She would eventually tell him, but not now.

The big thing was that now that Jessica's father was gone she wanted to leave Minnesota and go to New York. She didn't want to stay. Her and her mother were never close, she had a full ride, and she needed to get away. Her future was going to change with a baby. She needed to figure it all out.

Early in the morning Sarah came over. She was Jessica's best friend. Frankly Sarah was the only person Jessica wanted to be around. Sarah didn't pitty her or remind her of her fathers death. She tried to calm her down and distract her from the pain that seemed impossible to get rid of. Sarah was the only one who knew about the pregnancy.

Sarah walked into Jessica's room. Tissues covered the floor making the floor resemble fluffy white clouds.

"Jessie?" Sarah says softly.

She was dressed in a classy black dress that went to her knees.

"Hi." Jessica sniffles wiping her tears.

"Do you want me to help you get ready? Everyone's getting ready to head to the church." Sarah goes over to Jessica's closet and pulls out her dress and heels.

Jessica nods and slowly brings herself up.

"How do you feel today? Any morning sickness."

"No, I'm too tired to get sick."

"Alright... let me help you."

**

Jessica and her family headed to the church. The service was beautiful but hard. Jessica sobbed the hole time and couldn't build the strength to speak of or about her dad. Jessica felt pains the whole time that to a point became unbearable.

As people walked past her fathers body Jessica and her family stood by the coffin waiting for people to hug them and say they were sorry.

Jessica hated it all. The sadness was unbearable. Everything was.

As family friends walked past Jessica quickly ran out of the room. She felt so dizzy and overwhelmed.

Her boyfriend Danny saw her leaving and he followed after her. Jessica's family watched as she ran out.