Ask Me Questions

Obscure Asks

Once again I found this on Tumblr (good old Tumblr for all my parts). I'm going to answer these questions this week. I may or may not have answered these questions before. And if I have answered these before my answers may have changed because you know people change.

1. What's your favorite way to dress?

Super fucking casual/like I just got up. I hate dresses and skirts because I don't sit like a girl. I sit Indian style (Is that still politically correct? That's what everyone here calls it.) a lot of the time. You cannot do that acceptable in a dress or skirt. I don't like wearing actual jeans. My thighs and but are usually too fat for that shit. And what I mean by that is that the size of my waist is different from my thighs. My waist is pretty small (like I wear a size 5 or 6) but then my thighs and butt don't fit into a size 5 or 6. So if I wear anything that looks like jeans it has to be jeggings because they're stretchier so my fat ass can fit in them. But most of the time I just wear sweatpants or leggings. As for shirts, I wear a lot of baggy shirts or sweatshirts.

2. If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?

How fucking lazy I am at times. I know I seem super fucking motivated all the times. I get updates out fairly often. I keep to my word on updates. But since my aunt passed I've been super fucking lazy. I've been doing a lot of laying around and reading fanfiction and watching TV. And when I'm not doing that I've been getting tests done so that we can finally figure out what the fuck is wrong with my heart. For those of you who don't know, I have been having heart problems since I was 18 (or at least that's when the doctor first caught it and brought it to my attention). I'm almost 20 now and we still don't know what's wrong (I'm typing this on July 20, 2018). My heart rate is unusually high. Like a normal resting heart rate is around 60. Mine rarely drops below 80. Most of the time it's up above 100. I get really bad chest pain. My heart will start beating really hard to the point it hurts to breathe. I get dizzy when this happens. My heart will skip beats. I'll wake up in the middle of the night not being able to breathe because of how hard my heart is beating. My family doctor can't figure it out (she waited over a year before she admitted she didn't know what the problem is). I've been trying to get into a cardiologist but I've been waiting for almost 5 months now to get in. I was supposed to go in May but with my aunt's death, the appointment fell on the day of her funeral/memorial service, so I had to reschedule it. And I go back to Cleveland in August for school so I really need to get in.

3. What movie/game/etc. helps you calm down?

I don't really know. When I'm pissed off, nothing calms me down but time.

4. What does your room smell like?

This is a weird question and I don't really know how to answer it. You know it's like one of those things where you go to a friend's or a family member's house and it just smells like their house. Like it's not a scent you can name except to say it smells like so and so's house. You know? I suppose my room smells like whatever I decided to put in my oil diffuser that day.

5. Do you like to organize?

Yes. I love organizing. It makes my life so much easier. I'm anal about organizing my shit. You should see the folders I have for my documents on my computer.

6. What kind of music would you listen to if you could only choose one?

Probably country. I listen to a ton of country to begin with (something my ex hated). I like way too many country artists to give it up.

7. What song is your aesthetic?

I don't really get the whole aesthetic thing yet. Just like I don't get what mood boards are.