Shawn Mendes imagines

73. miscarriage

Warning: sad content ahead and a mature topic.

Today me and Shawn go for our second scan for our baby. We are so excited to see how our little bean is coming along. We were so happy when we found out We were pregnant.

Shawn and I were over the moon we couldn't be happier this was what we wanted and Shawn made plans to put his career on hold while we have a child.

He wanted to drop everything for us to have a child but I told him he could still have his career because I knew he would end up missing it because he always dreamed of doing this and this was always where he was happiest.

At the hospital...

"Well are you guys ready to see how your  little one is doing?"

"More than ready." Shawn says.

"Ok Y/N would you like to lie down and pull your shirt up for me please."

I do as he says.

He puts the gel onto my stomach and it's very cold at first when applied. He looks around my stomach through the ultrasound.

His face was happy but slowly changed to sad.

He wipes the gel off of my stomach. And tells me to sit up.

"I'm sorry but you have had a miscarriage. There is no sign of a foetus in your stomach. I'm so sorry I'm going to leave the room so you can talk about this. I'm sorry for your loss. You have my condolences."

He leaves the room.

I burst out into tears and Shawn just pulls me into him.

"I'm so sorry Y/N."

I mean away from his hug.

"No I'm sorry this is all of my fault Shawn. I couldn't carry the baby I'm so sorry I failed you." I say crying more.

Shawn gets onto his knees and moves his hands from my face. He was now crying.

"No hunny it's not your fault these things just happen sometimes. I love you no matter what. This doesn't mean we can't try again ok?"

"Ok again I'm really sorry Shawn."

"Again you have nothing to be sorry about."

"I love you Shawn."

"I love you too. I think we should go home now yeah?"

"Yeah let's go."

The drive home was silent. Shawn held my hand the whole way home.

When we get home we get into comfortable clothes like sweats and order takeout. I've been silent since we've been to the hospital.

"Y/N please talk to me."

I start crying again.

"I know but I still feel like I have failed you and this hurts a lot. I know how excited you were when I was pregnant. I am so sorry."

"It really isn't your fault. Things happen. I still love you no matter what.  We can try again in the future.  Don't ever think you disappoint me.  You are the best thing that has ever happend to me.  I love you so so much." He says crying.

"I love you too."

He kisses me and I kiss back and it was a much needed kiss. We go to bed and cuddle up not wanting to let go of eachother and telling eachother how much we love eachother because we really needed love right now. I love him and I know we can get through this together.

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