Shawn Mendes imagines

177. letting go part 2

A/N: sorry it's taken a while but here is part 2 because people wanted it so I hope you guys like it so let's get started. Here we go!

Y/N's P.O.V

It's been 3 months since I've been in New York and I would be lying if I said I was happy because I'm really not. I'm miserable. I have the worst roommate, I miss having my best friend kurt by my side and most importantly I miss shawn. He hasn't tried to reach out to me in those 3 months we have been apart. I would reach out to him but I know I wouldn't get a response.

I hate this school but to be where I wanna get I have to go through this school because it will increase my chance of stardom. I've been telling kurt everything was fine but I just couldn't lie anymore so I called him while I was out for a walk.

"Hey kurt."

"Y/N hows New York?" He aks while I sit down next to a fountain.

"I've been lying to you for the past 3 months kurt, I hate it here. No one at school likes me especially my dance teacher. I have an awful roommate and well I'm at my breaking point honestly."

"Well are you looking for a new roommate maybe with i dont know someone you know."

"Yeah and how is that gonna work?"

"Turn around."

I turn around and see him at the opposite end of the fountain. I stand up and we both start running towards each other. We hug and scream out in happiness.

"What are you doing here?"

"Well there was nothing left for me to do back home so I thought I would come New York get a job and an apartment and then reapply for the programme in December. "

"Oh my God that's amazing."

"So what do you say? Wanna be my roommate?"

"Uh yeah!" I hug him again.

It takes us a couple of days to find an apartment but we find one and it's great. We settle in quite quickly and we are sat on the floor with take out laughing when there is a knock on my door.

I get up and answer it and when I open that door I am surprised. I open that door to see that shawn was standing there.

"Hey w...w...what are you doing here?"

"Well kurt texted saying you both found an apartment and well I thought I would visit, but i mainly wanted to see and talk to you if that's ok?"

"Yeah sure um...come in please."

He walks in and I close the door behind him and glare at kurt who is hugging shawn. He just smiles at me.

"Well I think I'm gonna go for a walk I'll um..see you guys in a bit." Kurt says grabbing his coat and walking out the door leaving me and shawn stood there in awkward silence.

"So..." shawn says.

"So..." I say looking up at him.

"How have things been? You been enjoying?"

"Um..its not how I imagined it to be honest shawn. I'm not liking it. I have no friends there my dance teacher hates me for some reason and I'm just breaking down shawn this is not what I was expecting and I'm trying so hard but its not good enough." I say with a tear rolling down my cheek. "And the hardest part of all of this is that I haven't been able to tell you. I havent been able to confide in you and I haven't been able to have a hug off you which makes everything feel better."

"I know and I'm sorry that I wasnt there I just did what I thought was the best for you. I just wanted you to go and do this because it was your dream and I couldn't hold you back. I loved you enough to let you go and Y/N I still love you. I've come back to make things right if you'll let me."

"Shawn you cant just walk right back in 3 months after I needed you by my side that first day I was here. I was a mess the first couple of weeks I was here because you broke my heart. I tried to tell myself what you did was right but it wasn't. You didn't even let me have say you just did. I hate you for that but even after all of that I still love you but I shouldn't."

"I know and I'm really really sorry. I hate seeing you upset and mad and knowing that I caused this hurt, it hurts me a lot and makes me wish i could take back everything i did. I love you so so much. More than I could ever tell you."

"I know shawn i know. I love you too."

"Y/N I know I messed up but I want to start things over and back to like how they were before we left please."

"Shawn I-" i get cut off.

"No I'm not finsihed. I realised in these past three months that I cant live without you in my life. I love you so much Y/N. I regret telling you to go without me. I should've been there with you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you Y/N. I dont want to go a day without you. So what I'm trying to say is...." he says getting down on one knee with a velvet box opening it up to a stunning diamond ring. I cover my mouth with my hands in shock. " Y/N will you do the honours of making me the happiest man alive and marry me?"

I nod my head because I speechless I cant say anything. He puts the ring on my finger and then stands up. He places his hand on my cheek and leans in. The familiar sensation of his lips on mine felt perfect and right. We kissed passionately and he pulls away looking at me.

" I love you Y/N."

"I love you shawn."

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Hope you liked this 2nd part thank you all for reading xx