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A request for fianceeofshawnmendes

Lately I've been quiet and Shawn has noticed but I have tried playing it off as if nothing's wrong when really everything is.

I looked in the mirror and all I could see was me fat. I know that I am and because of stupid pregnancy hormones I feel ugly and fat and I just can't shake that feeling off no matter how hard I try to shake the feeling off.

I'm getting so self conscious with the baby bump and the only person I have told at the moment about this is Shawn's mum and she really is trying to help me feel better every time Shawn is at the studio but I just don't agree.

I feel fat and I don't think that feeling is going away anytime soon. I'm just so insecure and my hormones being all over the place at the moment isn't helping and I just feeling like crying all of the time.

I decided I need to tell Shawn when he gets home. He knows something's wrong and he deserves to know the truth even if he can't help. I know he will be there to get me through.

Shawn gets home and kisses me on the head and then goes get changed and then sits down on the couch.

"Shawn?"

"Yeah honey?"

"Can I tell you what's going on?"

"Of course you can tell me anything."

"So lately I've been feeling very insecure about myself. Being pregnant and having this bump is making me feel fat and that I really am fat and I hate it. Also my hormones being everywhere I just feel like crying all of the time and I can't help it. I don't want to be fat Shawn. I just don't." I say practically in tears now.

He grabs my hand and pulls me onto his lap. He hugs me while I let all my tears pour and is comforting me the best way he can.

"Jessica baby. You are not fat not in the slightest. Yes you may have a bump and be showing but that's because you are carrying our beautiful child. You are carrying something that we created. You are so beautiful Jessica and if I could show you what I saw I would. You are an amazing person. I love you and you are not fat so there is no need to be insecure. I love you Jessica never forget that." He now has a tear running down his face and I see how much pain I have caused him.

"I'm so sorry Shawn. I should never have said anything I've upset you now."

"No baby. You should have told me, yeah you have made me upset that you don't feel good in your own skin but I'm telling you now you can lumber me with all your problems and I will help you through them all. I love you ok. You are not fat I promise."

"I love you Shawn."

He starts kissing me and in between kisses he says I love you too. You are so adorable.

"How about we go to bed?"

"I'd like that can we have cuddles?"

"Of course I wouldn't have it any other way Jessica."

We walk upstairs and get into bed and cuddle up. He kisses my head and I close my eyes ready to fall asleep.

As I'm about to fall asleep I hear Shawn whisper this in my ear..

"My sexy lady, you have my heart forever."

After hearing that I fell asleep peacefully with a smile on my face with Shawn's arms wrapped around me. This was all I needed to help. Shawn was my rock.

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