Shawn Mendes imagines

146. no children

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So me and my husband shawn have been trying to have a baby for over a year now and well it wasn't going so well. Anytime we may think I am pregnant the test always comes back negative. We have also been pregnant once or twice but I had a miscarriage.

We decided we should go to the doctors and figure out what was wrong. We both had to get tested to see whether it was something wrong with me or something wrong with shawn.

Right now we were in the office to find out what is going on and why we cant have children and me and shawn have never been so nervous in our lives.

"Hi Mr. and Mrs. Mendes I have the results and I want to tell you before we start what I'm about to tell you is not easy but don't go blaming yourself because these things just happen."

Me and shawn exchange a nervous look and he connects our hands together and squeezes my hand.

"So let's get to it then shall we? So let's start off with shawn. Shawn you have nothing wrong. Everything is working well just as it should be so that leaves us to you Y/N. I'm sorry but your womb isn't hospitable meaning that your womb isn't suitable to carry a child meaning that you cant have any children I am so sorry."

Tears start rolling down my cheeks. I'm the reason we can't have children. We both say thank you to the doctor and leave.

The car ride home was silent. I couldn't even look at shawn. I felt so bad I knew how badly he wanted children and I cant even give him that anymore. We got home and I ran upstairs and locked myself in our room.

I got into more comfortable clothes like sweats and just cried into a pillow. I spent hours in there on my own. I understand why shawn didn't come up in those hours.

I hear a gentle knock against the door.

"Y/N please open up. I want to talk to you."

I open the door and then sit back down on the bed. I feel a dip next to me on the bed.

"Princess please dont blame yourself for this because I dont. I know how much we both wanted children but you cant blame yourself for this. I still love you. I'll always love you that's why I put that ring on your finger. I promised to love you forever whatever circumstances are thrown at us and this is a minor setback but there are other options for us to have children. You Y/N are the strongest person I know and I'm here for you but please don't put this kind of guilt on you."

"Shawn I dont get it why aren't you leaving me? I cant give you what you want. You want children and I cant give you that so you should find someone else who can."

"You dont understand i dont want anyone else. I love you and I want to be with you and if we can't have children so be it I love you and that is never going to change."

"I'm so sorry shawn I love you so much."

"I love you too baby girl now let's get some rest we've had a long day."

We cuddle up together and he sings to me until I fall asleep and I feel better knowing that shawn is still by my side even if I cant give him something he wants.

Shawn was all I needed to be happy.

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