Shawn Mendes imagines

153. hurt

Warning: explicit language

I noticed that my boyfriend shawn was distant lately. I have also noticed hes been spending a lot of time with Camila. He has just gotten back from tour and hasn't spent anytime with me but has spent a lot of time with her since hes has got back and released senorita with her.

I was gonna call him out on this whole thing because I've missed him and when he got back he didn't want to spend time with me but would with her and it hurts me because from photos I have seen he looks as happy with her as he did at the start of our relationship. I haven't seen him that happy with me in ages and that makes me wonder whether I'm not good enough because Camila is perfect in every way and well I'm me. Not perfect, not skinny and not famous.

Shawn gets home and goes straight upstairs not even taking any notice of me. I follow and before he can close the door to our bedroom I place my arm out andhe mumbles a hey.

"Shawn have I done something wrong?"

"No why would you think that?"

"Well because we haven't seen each other in like four months and I've been looking forward to seeing my boyfriend but as soon as he gets back instead of hanging with me he hangs with another girl and has ignored me this whole entire time when I've missed you."

"You know what Y/N I don't have time for your whining. Am I not allowed to go out with my friends?"

"Of course you are but shawn you have been so distant lately and that makes me feel hurt because I've missed you and you dont seem to care at all."

"Really Y/N I'm sorry that I'm not here for you but I am allowed to go out it's a free country and you don't control me. God why couldn't you be more like Camila, not whiny, gorgeous and not a self centred bitch like you."

That's when the tears start to roll down my cheeks.

"You know what shawn you are a dick. First off you know how insecure I am in general but comparing me to Camila when you know I already feel incompetent compared to her and feel like she has always been better. Yeah i know she's prettier, skinnier and just all round better than i am but you actually said it to my face. That hurts a lot. I thought you loved me and you always said I was the only one but obviously I'm not. I hope Camila treats you better."

As I walk out the room tears spilling down I hear shawn come after me yelling at me to stop and that he is sorry about what he said. I just ran and ran until I couldn't anymore. I found that I ran to mine and Shawn's place. Where we first met. The memories flooded back which only made me cry more.

It starts to rain but I dont care. I feel a hand on my shoulder and instantly I know who it is straight away. I dont turn around because I dont want to see his face.

"Shawn go away. I dont want to see you right now or at all."

"I don't care Y/N you dont have to talk to me please just listen."

"Fine." I say still avoiding eye contact.

"Look I'm really sorry and I know the word sorry isn't enough for what I did. I dont even know why I said that. I guess I was caught up in the heat of the moment. You are enough for me Y/N. You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my life and I'm not lying, I would never do that too you. I love you just the way you are I would never want you to change. You are the one I see living with for the rest of my life. You are the one for life Y/N and I'm so sorry that I have been the shittiest boyfriend in the world and you deserve better. Please give me another chance I swear I will do better and treat you the way that you deserve. I love you so much."

"I'd like to start over shawn. I see the rest of my life with you and I love you so so much shawn."

"I love you more than you could possibly know baby girl I'm so glad we are starting over."

"Me too."

After this we went home and spent the rest of our lives together even more in love than we were before.

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