Choni one shots

39: The One With The Fake Heart Break

TONI POV:

"Toni, I'm- I'm sorry I have do this." My heart shatters. I feel the tears build but in my eyes. She puts down a draw for card. "Cher..." she looks down. "I'm sorry." I take four cards out of the pile and we both start laughing. "We're like old ladies." I whisper as she puts her last card down. "Damnit!" I throw my cards down. She laughs softly and sits next to me. "I'm sorry I had to." We Sit there in silence for a while, I look down and Cheryl is sound asleep. I pick her up trying not to wake her up and bring her into our room. I tuck her in, clean up and check on our son. He's up. "J." He looks at me with tears in his eyes. "Bud what's wrong?" I sit next to him and pull him into a hug. "I- I had a bad dream." He cries. I rub his back. "What happened?" I whisper. He shakes his head. "Do you want to read a story to you?" I whisper. He nods.

I lie down next to Cheryl after talking Jason out of a panic attack. "Is he ok?" She whispers. "Yeah he just had a nightmare, and a panic attack." I rap my arm around her. "Aren't you going to change?" I shake my head. "Do you know what time it is?" I ask. "It's late and I want to sleep." I slowly fall asleep. Well I'm asleep for a while than I feel a small hand tap my foot. "Momo." I ignore it for a minute hoping he'll go away. I love him but, can't he annoy Cheryl!? "Momo." He whispers again. I roll over and groan. "What!?" I ask my eyes are still shut. "I need to go to school in 5 minutes." I jump up and luckily he's dressed. "Why didn't you wake up sooner?" I ask rushing him downstairs. "Because I didn't want to wake you." I pour some cereal into a bag for him. "That's not gluten free." He says as I hand it to him. God parenting is hard! "Right." I get him different cereal and we go to the car. I get him in his car seat and I drive off. Once we get there he jumps out and goes inside. I let go of the breath I didn't know I was holding and drive home. I go inside and see his bag. "For fuck sake." I grab it and go drop it off at his school. "I'm sorry we were in a rush this morning." I say quietly. "It's ok. It happens." The secretary says quietly. "I'll call him down." She gets on the phone and calls Jason down. I few minutes later he comes down to the office. "Hey bud." I give him his bag and a kiss on the top of his head. "I love you bud." He runs off and I go home. Cheryl is standing at the end of the stairs very pissed off. "Cher..." I try to explain. "It's your week to bring him to school! What the hell?" I look down. "He had his clothes on backwards." I whisper. She looks down nervously. "Cheryl it was fine he wasn't marked down for it." She looks back up and looks up she wants to throw up. "Cheryl you ok?" I take her hand. "When are we going to tell Jason he's adopted?" She ask quietly. "Well, do you think he's ready?" I ask taking her hand and rubbing it. She shrugs. "We'll find out." She let's go of the breath she was holding.

"Why did you wait 14 years to tell me?!" He throws his adoption papers in front of me and Cheryl. We never told him when he was younger, I don't know why it just wasn't the time I think. Cheryl looks at me than back at are son. "Why didn't you tell me?" He sits down. "Because, we didn't find the right time." Cheryl says quietly. "Bull shit." I look up. "Watch your language." I whisper. "Why do I have to listen to you? You're not my parents!" He yells. He gets up and walks out. "How did he find these?" Cheryl ask picking the papers up. "He doesn't have a passport and I had to dig out all of his paper work, I had all of it out on my office." I say not looking at her. "Toni..." I rub the back of my head. "I thought I locked the door. I'm sorry." I get up and make more coffee. "I'll talk to him." I say quietly. "When?" I shrug. "When he decides he's no longer mad at us." I say slightly pissed off.

There is a knock on the door. "Are you here to tell me how awful me and Cheryl are?" I ask knowing it's Jason. "I remember when you said we were moving when I was five. Why didn't you tell me?" He ask not looking at me. "Jason, with the move and Cheryl having the miscarriage and you were struggling in school. We couldn't add another thing on your plate." I get up and sit on the front of my desk. "Why did you decide to adopt?" He ask above a whisper. "Because neither me or Cheryl could get pregnant." I tell him honestly. "Than what made you guys want another kid after you adopted me?" He ask for some reason very frustrated. "We kept trying, and we thought it might work that time and it did but," I take a deep breath. "Remember when Cheryl was in the hospital for a few months?" I ask quietly. He nod. "We had a stop the pregnancy because it almost killed Cheryl. After that neither of us could think about having another kid everything in that house reminded us of what happened. So we moved. We were going to tell you but, everything happened with Cheryl and we couldn't." I hold back tears. "I'm still mad at you." He walks out. I make sure Cheryl isn't around and close the doors to my office. I go to my a mini fridge and take out the beer. Cheryl hates when I drink.

"You've been drinking." Cheryl whispers as I lie next to her. "Toni what's wrong?" I slowly start crying again. "I talked to Jason about everything that happened, and it brought back memories." She turns to me. "I almost died, don't you think it was easy for me? Do you see me drinking my problems away?" She ask a little pissed off. "Cheryl you're not the one who made the final decision!" I argue. "You're right." She whispers. "I'm sorry." I whisper. "Why?" She looks down. "I couldn't lose you."

I'm doing my work waiting for Jason to come home. Ever since he found he was adopted he has been hanging out with his friends. Speaking of him, the door slowly opens and he stumbles in. "Momo." He comes in. I don't know why he started calling me that. "What's up bud?" I don't think he actually knows my name so he can't call me Toni. "I think I accidentally eat a weed brownie." He whispers in panic. I get up and walk over to him. "What happened?" I ask quietly. "I was with my friends and it was a party and I don't know." I bring him to his room. "Go to bed and sleep it off we'll talk in the morning." He lie down. "Can you stay so I don't die?" He ask. I laugh quietly and sit at his desk. I think he forgets that I'm his mom and not his friend. "I-I don't hate them, I just hate that my moms waited to tell me. I don't blame them though." He says out loud. He's not wrong at its sad.

This makes so sense and I'm sorry