Shourtney AU - Loving So Hard (Mature)

#1 - The Waiting Area

*Courtney*

I entered the huge office with anxiety, trepidation, but also excitement. My audition for Smosh would take place in just a few minutes. My friend Olivia greeted me at the door. She was the reason I had got an audition.

"Hey Court!"

I hugged her tightly, "Hey Liv."

"You ready?"

I nodded, "I think so."

Olivia smiled warmly, "Right this way then."

I followed her through the halls to a spacious waiting area. A dozen actors and actresses were already sat there, but that's when I saw him.

Olivia noticed my face turn pale, "Everything alright?"

I squeezed my eyes shut and a solitary tear trickled down my cheek as I remembered everything we did together.

"Oh my God, Courtney you're crying, what's wrong?" Olivia asked kindly.

"T-That's Shayne Topp," I stated sadly, pointing at the handsome blonde.

"Oh," was all Olivia could muster.

"I gotta get outta here," I said hastily.

Olivia stopped me, "It's been years since high school, surely you've forgiven him by now?"

More tears welled up in my eyes, "He broke my heart Liv. I loved him, and he left."

"I know Courtney, I know. But you're adults now. It would only be a problem if you never stopped loving him after all these years."

A distinct blush formed in my cheeks, "Yeah, which is why it's a problem."

Olivia's eyes widened and she gulped, "You still love him?"

"How could I ever stop? We were together for three years in high school, and then his selfish ass took off, moved across the country," I exclaimed.

"Well then, surely you're pissed at him? Why do you still love him?" Olivia inquired, rubbing my arm.

"How could I not love him? We spent every minute of every hour of every fucking day together. We practically lived together. He was my everything, and I was that to him, well, at least I thought I was."

Olivia sighed, "Go talk to him Courtney. The schedule says you two don't have your auditions for another half an hour or so."

"I can't talk to him!"

Olivia responded, "If you both get the job here you're going to have to."

"I don't want to talk to him. I hate him!"

"You just said you still love him."

"I-I do. I-I..."

"So you love him and you hate him?" Olivia quizzed with a confused expression.

I sighed with frustration, "I can't let him know that I still love him. He'll think I'm a total loser. He probably has a girlfriend anyway."

"Doesn't mean you have to hate him. You could still be friends."

"But I wanna be more than that," I complained.

Olivia sighed, "I don't know what you want Court, but I gotta get going. Good luck with your audition, I'll see you after, alright?"

I nodded sadly, still staring at Shayne. He was looking at something on his phone, squinting his eyes. I smiled slightly, I always thought he looked cute when he did that.