♪Life Saver♪ {Shawn Mendes}

Chapter 21

(Emily pov)

As much as I tried to be happy and pretend I was okay I wasn't.  I'll never be 'Okay'

At this point I'm just done.

Just as I position the blade on my wrist the door flies open.

All the guys were standing in the door frame. Shawn and Cam came over to me. I didn't bother looking up at them. I was focused on the blade and my wrist. I was gonna cut vertically this time and try to end it all.

I just wanted to die and forget about everything. I just want to get away.

"Emily. Please don't do this." Cam said

Shawn sat down next to me and wrapped his arms around me. He rocked us back and forth. Carefully taking the blade away from me and handing it to Cameron.

"I want to die." I screamed

"I don't deserve to live." I screamed

"Emily it's okay I Promise." Cam said sitting next to me

"Nothing is ever going to be okay" I yelled at him

"Shhh.... babe, I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere." Shawn said kissing my forehead.

I still wasn't looking at any of them. All I wanted to do was die. I don't deserve anything. I don't deserve to be happy.

Tears were pouring out my eyes fasted than ever. And no one understands how much this really effects me.

"I don't want to be saved. I want to die." I say through the tears

"EMILY STOP!" Cam yells. I look up at him and his eyes were bloodshot and his face was as red as an apple.

"If we didn't love you, we wouldn't be here right now. Your entire life you always had me but you always hid things from me even when you knew you could tell me anything. You've been putting yourself through all this extra pain for no fucking reason when you have people here who care. I don't know if your stupid or just plain stupid." Cam yells.

He has never said anything like that, he barely yells at me and when he does yell at me we're mostly playing. I stood up and walked away. I pushed past the crowd of guys. Shawn tried to stop my but I pulled my hand away and walked out the hotel room.

(Cameron pov)

"EMILY STOP!" I yell

"If we didn't love you, we wouldn't be here right now. Your entire life you always had me but you always hid things from me even when you knew you could tell me anything. You've been putting yourself through all this extra pain for no fucking reason when you have people here who care. I don't know if your stupid or just plain stupid." I yell at her and she runs out the bathroom and out the hotel room.

What the hell did I just say?

I'm so fucking stupid.

I ran my fingers through my hair and all the guys we're looking at me.

I fucked up.

Shawn shook his head at me and walked out the hotel room.

I need to fix things with Emily and fast before she does anything stupid.

"Guys I fucked up." I say ashamed

"You don't say?!?!?!" Nash says sarcastically

"I don't have time for your sarcasm Nash." I say and walk out to find my baby sister.

I can't let anything happen to her. If anything happens it will be all my fault. I shouldn't have said those things.

All the guys were behind me. We all went to go look for her on the beach.  We figured she'll be there since it was one of her favorite places.

We called her phone and it went straight to voicemail.

Of course it went straight to voicemail cause she's Emily and she loves to be difficult.

We continued looking for her but we couldn't find her.

My phone rang and I answered it immediately.

It was Shawn.

"We have a problem." Shawn said.

You can tell he was crying.

"What kind of problem."

"She's on the roof." He said

"Is she okay?" I asked frantically

"Physically yes, mentally no. Just hurry up. I'm afraid she might jump." He said still crying. You can hear the fear in his voice.

"Okay, I'll be right there. Please don't let anything happen."

"I promised I'll be there for her, no matter what."

We hung up the phone and rushed back to the hotel.

(Shawn pov)

As I sat there and watched her she walked closer and closer to the ledge.

Please, Please babe. Don't do this, your stronger than this. We can get through this.

As much as I wanted to say that out loud I couldn't. She doesn't know I'm here and it might push her past her limits.

I've never really seen her like this, I've never seen her so sad.

Looking at her like this was making me cry. She was looking over the edge probably debating weather or not to jump.

I love her with all my heart. Everything about her was amazing. Her long brown hair, her light brown eyes. Her smile.
I love it when she gets embarrassed and she tries to hide her face. It's all the little things, that I love.

She's honestly the sweetest person ever, she doesn't deserve all that hate she gets.

The fans find all her imperfections and bring it to her attention only causing her pain. She thinks everything about her is horrible. Nobody ever really told her how beautiful she was. But even her imperfections were perfections to me.

She's been through so much pain over these past couple of years.

She's broken and I'm gonna fix her.

I want to save her and be her life saver.

I need her just as much as she needs me. She's not going to fight through this alone. I will be with her every step of the way, through thick and thin. I'll do whatever it takes to save her.

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Sad chapter. 

I may or may not update later. I still have homework I need to do and it's 8:12pm here.

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Thanx for reading luv ya all.

~Ahrayal Mendes~

STAY STRONG BEAUTIFUL ♥♥♥♥

BYE.