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Billie's p.o.v

Lana made my thoughts go mad crazy. Everybody always thought me that if i wanted something, or that if i wanted to go for someone. I just had to try. Lana was the reason to just try and go for it. I wanted to kiss her, by pulling her at the back of the stage i had a chance. Without being seen i held her closer to me. All ready to kiss to these beautiful kissable lips of her, i leaned in. Closed my eyes, and before i got interrupted i tried to connect our lips.

It was an epic failure when she pulled her head away, looking up because someone called out her name. The fuck was this dude thinking? How could he screw this moment up for me? I only got one shot, and it was taken away from me. I made crazy theories in my head about what i was gonna do now, or how do i even explain myself to her? I was straight. I am straight. I think. But before i could think about anything else, i heard him saying that Kate was in the hospital.. I looked up at Lana, she got so upset. I wanted to hold her, and go with her. But before even suggesting my idea, she ran. As fast as she could towards the exit.

I slapped myself mentally over and over. I fucked up, thats it. Now she's gone. I can't help or support her, i can't even be there for her. And i tried to kiss her.

I walked to the tourbus, and when i got in i threw myself on the bed. Laying my head on the pillow, while holding my blosh stuffed animals thight. Mom walked in, she sat besides me, and started to stroke my hair.

"What is wrong? I can sense that there is something going on sweetheart." She asked

She always knew when something was up, i could not lie to her. not again. I could not lie that Lana was just a friend. I could not lie about my feelings, and i could not lie to her that i didn't had feelings for girls before. I sat up, grabbing my mom her hands.

"Mom we should talk.."

Lana's p.o.v

Brian called in a cab for me and Trey, since he already left. Lily accompanied Kate in the ambulance.

"How did this happen?" I yelled at Trey, feeling myself getting all over the place. I felt a slightly panic when the cab was also driving as slow as he possibly could.

"We don't know. One moment Kate was dancing and enjoying herself. Next moment she was on the ground, throwing up and passing out."

I held out a frustrated sigh and felt tears coming to my eyes. Please don't tell me we are losing Kate, not on this holiday. not ever. not now. Trey put his arm around me, squeezing into my shoulder.

After arriving at the hospital, i ran inside. Trey following me. Lily texted me the room. 314..... 314. Fuck why can't i just find it? We probably had to go upstairs. I started to ran to the stairs, and then i walked up at them as fast as i could. 314, finally. I walked in, finding Kate laying on the bed. She was unconscious, and she was connect to this machine that followed her heartbeat. I instantly started to cry and walked near the bed. I grabbed for her hand, which was attached to an infusion. "Please Kate wake up and be you again." I cried.

I felt Lily laying her hand down on my shoulder, and her head in my neck. We both cried, for god knows how long. "Did the doctors say anything at all?"

"They deliberately keep her in a coma.. Maybe for just 24 hours, and then they have to see if she is strong enough to wake up."

"No!" I cried even louder while my knees became weak, and i felt Lily trying to hold me as i fell down on the floor. Kate doesn't have any family besides us, and now we can't do shit. But just wait, and hope that everything is going to be just fine. The staff at the hospital probably heard me screaming because two nurses rushed in, noticing me sitting down on the floor in tears, trying to keep myself together.