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59.O No more apologies

Billie's p.o.v

Loud snoaring woke me up from my sleep, rubbing my eyes slowly realizing it was Lana lying beside me. I laid my arm around her waist and stared at her for a little while. I was glad she was back, were not anything yet. But her moaning my name yesterday said it all, didn't it.

I smiled, turning my head away from her when i heard my phone buzzing on the nightstand. "Hello?" I walked out of the room to make sure Lana could sleep in. I couldn't recognize the voice coming out of the phone, while i got confused i furrowed my eyebrows and sit down on the couch.

"She isn't who she says she is." I shook my head and let my head rest on my hand. "Who's this tho?"

"Charlie." I rolled my eyes, wanting to end the call right then and there. "Please, dude. She's over you, stop."

I turned down the phone and could feel the same tingly feeling when i heard Lana's voice echooing through the room. "Who was that Bill?" I opened up my arms for her to snuggle on, placing kisses on her forehead i mumbled. "No worries princess, it was nothing." I could feel her body relax when she sighed and buried her face in my neck.

"Can we go get some of my clothes, before we're leaving for tour tommorow?" I waited a minute before i was gonna reply, but then nodded my head. "Let's get ready then."

After slapping her ass softly, we got ourselves ready. I love getting ready with Lana, she was always taking such good care of herself and tried to drag me into her skin care routine. I didn't mind, i would do anything for her. Just to see her smile. Anything.

"Cmon baby, we're late." I smiled at her and nodded, grabbing my car keys and made my way outside with her. 

I couldn't keep my eyes of her, altho she wasn't mine. I've been wanting to, but we have to work on our trust and issues from the past. I'm not the heartless kid i was back then, but i think it would take some effort from Lana to believe that. While i started the car i could see her looking outside, ticking her fingers on the beat against the window while she resting her head on it.

"I-" No dude, not now. Her eyes were burning on my skin when i turned my head away from her, focusing on the road again.

"I do too." She simply nodded, her pretty soul knowing me too damn well.

We continued the trip to Los Angeles, and didn't say much. Lana being Lana turning up the radio volume when my music came on, dancing too it, singing the lungs out of her chest. I'd let out a silent cry when she turned her hands on her hips, making awkward 'sexy' moves to Bitches broken hearts. Still stunning.

She has my heart.

When we pulled up at the house i could feel a strange feeling appear down my stomach. I didn't recognize the red chevrolet parked on the driveway. Neither did Lana, i could tell by her eyes growing wide. "Babe?" I asked, grabbing her hand to comfort her immediately.

"It's Charlie.." I rolled my eyes, getting irritated already that she thought she could live her on Lana's costs. "Cmon." I murmered getting myself out of the car, making my way the door followed by Lana to get inside after she unlocked it with  her key. Odd noises were coming from Lana's room and i looked at her.

She nodded, giving me permission to walk inside. If this what i thought it was, i was gonna kill her. I stopped by what i was seeing. Charlie on top of Lily, while Lily was moaning out her name out of please. "Lil?" I heard Lana ask, coming from behind me. I could sense she was pretty scared when she noticed Charlie looking at her. I laughed at the scene, i always kinda knew Lily would screw her over. She was acting way too innocent, let's say it bothered me.

"Well isn't this a good joke." I walked over to Lana's closet, ignoring what just happened. I could feel the air getting consumed with awkwardness and hatred from Charlie. "Don't tell me what to do, because you're living from their rent."

I nodded at Lana and pointed at the living room. "Stuff now."  She did as i told her to, as i felt a hand on my shoulder trying to turn me around.

I smacked her hand and grabbed for her wrist, my eyes were filling up with anger when i looked into hers. She was a softie, who'd like to dominate people. Too bad i wasn't too impressed with her, furrowing my eyebrows when i could feel her getting tense. "What were you on planning to do? Huh?"

"I told you Eilish, she isn't who she is saying she is." I rolled my eyes, laughing in her face and tightened my grip which made her shake and let out a loud groan. Not to mention this girl was still naked, trying to be a tough one when she was vulnerable as fuck.

"Pussy."I spat at her, looking directly in her eyes when i realized how mad i was. Letting go of her i turned my back to the two. Grabbing Lana's clothes together, luckily it wasn't as much as i expect it to be and it could fit in her two bags.

Without warning i turned my phone to Charlie and Lily, laying under the blankets. Two big wide eyes staring at me. I snapped a picture of them and giggled. "Don't try." I mouthed, giving Charlie a wink.

"Let's go babes." Lana followed me when we walked outside, i turned myself to her after putting the bags down into the car. "Babe, come here." I murmured her in a hug and kissed her forehead. Noticing Charlie standing in front of the window, dressed up. I pulled out a middle finger and chuckled when i tried to hold Lana closer.

"Let's go do something fun." I let go of her and got in the car. I drove off the driveway into the hills of LA. I could see Lana was hurting, i bet i would feel the same after walking into what we walked into.

I patted her knee and gave her a cheeky smile. "You're going to be just fine, i'll take you to your apartment and i-"

"Why can't i stay with you?" Pouting her bottom lip, i chuckled and shook my head. "Welp.. You can but us going on tour is chaotic so."

I could see her crossing her arm: and sighing out loud. I smiled at her and focused on the road again. She knew she could stay with me, i mean she could sleep with me. But, i'd miss her as my girlfriend. I drove to the highest point in the hills which looks down on the city of Los Angeles.

I parked the car in the spot and got out, i walked to the bench standing near the edge. I let myself sit down and patted on the spot beside me. "Come."

"No."

I laughed at the way she tried to act. "Come."

Ofcourse she gave in, and couldn't turn me down again. "You're so stressed, relax mamas."

She shrugged it off when i pulled my arm around her shoulders, so i tightened my grip and looked into her eyes. "babe."

"Don't babe me." I put a hand down her cheek and started to make soft strokes on her cheek. "You're a babe."

"I don't care." She mumbled.

"You do ca-" I'd let myself relax on the bench when she exploded. "I wanna love you Billie, what is so hard about it? I've been waitig for you, we fucked. You made me beg for more, how are we still friends?.."

I sighed at her reply and turned my head to the ground. "It's kinda hard Lana.."

"It's not. I won't leave you another note. Do you want this or nah?" She pointed at herself and i closed my eyes for a minute thinking about what she just said.

"Billie?"

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It's so bad.
Sorry:
I'll try to do more my best.
I just didn't want to dissapoint.