All the secrets of a fangirl | B. E. Story |

48.O Like it pretty rough

I let myself sit down into the seats when i looked over to her, our eyes didn't leave each other for a second. While the ferris wheel made their way up i looked away from her. A concerned Lily sat in front of me, i chuckled and shrugged my shoulders. "It's fine, okay? Let's forget about it."

The view from above was beautiful, it was until now that i noticed how crowded it was at the festival. You could hear music play from various artists all over the site and the lights were slowly going on since it became later in the afternoon. Ryan and Lily were still chatting away, looking like two adorable shitheads falling in love. I took out my phone to check out my notifications until the round was over.

When we got out i noticed her standing there, she was on her own. Standing against the wall with her hands down her pockets, searchingly looking around her. I couldn't get around her, i had to walk by. Ignoring her wasn't a thing for me to do, we haven't seen each other in five years. Hadn't spoke in five years, It would therefore not be strange to ignore her.. "Lil.." I looked beside me, and furrowed my eyebrows after noticing they both left.

"Fuck."

I crossed my arms and made my way to the festival site again. Walking fast, almost running.

"Lana?"

My body froze, as if it knew that i wasn't gonna let her stand there without saying anything. I felt dissapointed in myself for a moment, just because i promised myself to not let her get in to my head again. "I swear, this is the last time you'll talk to me."

Her eyes made my heart melt when i looked up to her face, the look she had was unreadable but she was biting her lip and held her hands down in her pockets. Her wide black cargo pants, and neon green Tommy Hilfiger on top of it made her outfit complete. Her hair was straightened and super long because of the extensions she was wearing.

"How are you?" She said it so soft as if nothing happened

"How do you think i'm doing?"

"You look irritated, but fine." Her eyes scanned my body from head to toe. "Yeah i'm fine. You?"

Her eyes lighten up when i asked her about how she is doing. "I'm doing good, busy."

"Busy with other things then tour tho" I wanted to look away from her when she put her hand down on my shoulder. "It's great seeing you again, i missed you."

I missed you, sure you blocked my ass. All good.

I walked away from her, not giving her a look after i turned my back to her. I was gonna be a weak bitch for the rest of my life whenever i see her or hear her name. I called Lily while i searched around me for her and Ryan. She picked up and told me she was at the performance of Tyler the creator and that's where Ryan's friends where too.

I walked over there and found them dancing, there were three other guys and one girl. She caught my attention by the way she was dancing. All on her own enjoying the music. Not grinding herself up on anyone as was Lily doing with Ryan. A strange unknown feeling was down in my stomach whenever i looked at her. Was this the sign a needed a while ago?

"Hey guys." I introduced myself to everyone when they saw me, and when it was time to introduce myself to her i could feel sweat breaking out and my cheeks to heat up when she shook my hand with the biggest, cutest smile on her face. "I'm Charlie."

Charlie.

I shook my head out of my thoughts after repeating her name inside my head. "Lana, hi." I let go of her hand altho i didn't want to, at the same time two hands were placed around my middle from the back. It was Lily, she hugged me before we started to dance. We were both crazy grinding on each other and dancing as if no one was watching. Someone was watching tho. Charlie's eyes were all over me, and i couldn't stop looking at her. Her tattoo sleeve caught my attention when she turned her right to me while dancing. You could clearly see the sugar skulls and red roses as if they had just been set on her arm.

"I love your tattoo's, they are dope!" I yelled at her over the music.

"What?" She turned herself to me with her hand behind her ear as if she didn't hear what i just said.

"I said.." I brought my mouth closer to her ear and smiled in myself. "I love your tattoo's, they're dope." At that moment i noticed her smiling  because of the compliment. "You are pretty dope yourself." She slid her hand slowly over my arm, giving me shivers all over my body when she touched me with her hand for a bare second.

Was it the sexual tension? Or was there more going on? Looking over to Charlie, her long curly grey blonde hair and bangs were floading with the wind. She was wearing black trousers with a yellow off white belt around it, on top she was wearing a rip n dip tee. She was my type, and i haven't felt anything like this before in the last years. It must have been a sign..

"Were getting drinks, do you all want something?" As Ryan and Lily were off to get some drinks, we started to dance again. I wanted to get closer to her so i fooled around a little bit before she had her hands on my hips and i was dancing onto her.

We all the know familiar feeling when your relationship is over and you are ready for something new, but at the same time you aren't ready, because the person you once loved will always be a part of your life. If they left such an big impact on you, they will stay with you for the rest of your life and the next few years. I had that with Billie. Was Coachella then maybe the place to find new luck, and new beginnings for me, so i could finally start the phase of getting over my first love?

Lips on my neck leaving a small trail of kisses to my earlobe caught my attention, leaving my thoughts and myself in a gaze i did not want to be awaken from. "Char-" she held my body closer to hers and brought her mouth to my ear. "It's mommy for you, not Charlie babygirl."

I closed my eyes when she just told me to call her that way and smiled in myself. I had to admit that i was having the best time of my life for the rest of the night with all the people around me. When it was around midnight we got back to our hut with Ryan and Charlie. As we made it ourselves comfortable in the livingroom i took out some Cheetos.

"It's like you've known me for a while mami." She patted her knee to sign me that i had to sit on her lap. As i did i turned the bag towards her and she took one out. Of course Lily and Ryan got out of the room since things became pretty heated between them.

"Is he your friend?" I asked her as i sit down beside her.

"Yeah, we're mates ever since first grade." she opened up her mouth for me to throw a cheeto in.

"That's cute." I chuckled as i scanned her face in the dark. She had pretty plumpy lips, her eyelashes were really long even tho she didn't wore any mascara on it.

"He helped me a lot, after i came out to my parents and after my first heartbreak.." I leaned my head against the pillows, listening to her and focusing on her story as she was about to open up about her feelings. "We came from far, and i can't imagine a life without him."

I nodded in sympathy, I scanned her eyes right now this moment. They were crystal clear in the dark as she came closer to me.I smelled her perfume as she got closer and put her hand around my neck. Sweet, sporty, exactly as you could describe her from what I could have seen from her this day.

"Aren't you going to open up to me?" I took a deep breath when I could almost feel her lips on mine. My body froze, as if it didn't know how to respond to this. It all went so easily with Billie, so naturally. I glanced the other way to get myself back to reality again. A wave of guilt flew through my body as she pressed her lips on mine.

Eventually I gave in and laid my hands on the back of her head as I kissed her back. I gently massaged her scalp while our bodies were pressed together as she laid on top of me on the couch. When I felt her hands slide to my bum I let her do her thing. It was as if we had both not had this a long time ago and were ready for it.

When she started kissing my neck i could see my phone light up on the side of the couch.

I furrowed my eyebrows trying to read the notification popping up.

Billieeilish started following you.

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