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28.O Cheap promises

The beautiful black haired girl got dressed after i faked my orgasm again for the 4th time this week, while we were going on it she couldn't stop talking. She told me her name (finally) and she told me how she is having trouble with her ex girlfriend, fucking boo- hoo for her. After a while of not feeling anything i decided it was time to fake it again, so she could leave and not come back ever again.

That was a lie, after meeting Billie i had so many mixed feelings about myself. I was longing for Billie, but i didn't had a chance. I told her to fight for me, but instead of fighting for me, her and Madison were spotted at the jewelry store. Everybody was making theories about it, but i was getting prepared for the worst.

I had a little cocktail date with Claudia the week after Billie and her family came for dinner at the restaurant. She told me in details how Madison was pushing Billie to propose to her, after Billie turned 18 in december. Claudia could see that Billie was getting sucked in by Madison and her expectations of their relationship. My heart broke again when the photo of them at the jewelry store popped up on my instagram feed.

"I'll see you around okay?" Michelle told me, when she pulled her pants up.

I shook my head trying to get rid of the thoughts of Billie with Madison. "Probably."

Michelle left and i got out of the bed to get myself ready in the bathroom. I turned on spotify, and turned up the volume to the max. Maggie Lindemann's Friends go came on and i sing the lyrics to it after i got out of the shower. I curled my hair after i dried it, and i dressed myself in a mint green lace dress.

Today was the gender reveal party at Sophie's house. I already knew what it was gonna be, since i was the one who ordered the cake. And i couldn't help but peek inside the note after i got it to bring it to the bakery, i'm a really bad friend. But i'm not gonna tell her. I bought some gender neutral baby clothes, and a little fluffy stuffed animal from Disney's Monster inc. I looked at myself in the mirror and tried to find my white heels. When i was all done i grabbed my car keys and got out of the house. I walked over to my car and drove over to Sophie's house.

She lives in my old neighborhood, two blocks away from my mom's. I parked the car near the street and got my gifts out of the seat beside me. I walked up to the front door and unlocked it, Sophie gave me a spare key incase of emergencies. It was already very busy, i could see her mom in the kitchen, and her sisters were outside with their hubbies and dad. I noticed some unfamiliar faces, but i assumed they were her friends. I walked up to herself, she looked absolute gorgeous. Sophie was wearing an tight white dress that showed off her little babybump very well.

"Baby!" She screamed, she had a glass of some fruit juice in her hand. "Please look out, you are going to spill it all over your dress." I said while hugging her. "You look absolutely breath taking." I smiled at her and put my presents down on the table where they collected everyone's. I wrapped the presents up in cute unicorn paper and i put it all in a classic rose bag.

"I'm going to introduce you to everyone." We did our round and i met all of her friends, they were all very friendly and very kind towards me. Someone unfortunately recognized me because of Billie. I completely understanded it that they did, but it reminded me of her over and over. We all sat down at the table in her backgarden. Her home was a complete dream, the real american dream as you could say. I took a sip from my wine glass, and looked over to Sophie who was standing at the head of the table. She prepared a little speech before they were gonna cut the cake. I couldn't help but cry a little, i was so proud of her. It felt like i knew this girl already for 5 years, but it was only 11 months. When she ended the speech we let out a little cheer for her to cut the cake.

Each of one us stood up to watch what it was gonna be. Her mom cut the cake while Sophie and her hubbie, who's name is Garret kept their eyes closed. When they saw that they were having a little babyboy everybody began to cheer. I smiled at them, they both look so happy with each other. It were these moments where i felt extremely unhappy that i wasn't with Billie, i always hoped that we would get a cute family for ourselves in the future. But she was building her future with her hoe now. So.