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26.O I'm a fool

"Lana.."

I put a pizza down at a family's table after hearing a familiar voice behind me. The shivers ran down my body when I realized who it was, slowly turning around with my eyebrows raised. A well-known girl for me with apparently dark purple / blue dyed hair. Her bright blue eyes scanned me from head to toe. The disappointment hit me when she stood in front of me, i looked over to Sophie who also seemed shocked by Billie coming here.

I walked beside her to the back, she followed. "Be right back." I signed Sophie when i walked outside with Billie. When we walked outside i pulled my hair up in a ponytail. I avoided Billie's arms that wanted to hug me. "Nah i'm good." I crossed my arms and looked into her eyes, i could see that she cried.

"Please Lana, it was a stupid mistake. You know i never have been drinking before."

"Well then that is the consequence of you doing it, whether you are drunk or not. You shouldn't have done it, and don't come with the excuse that you missed me. You just shouldn't have done it." I wiped away a small tear leaving my eye, i thought i was over it already. Since i ignored Billie for the last days after i heard what happened with Madison. My social media was exploding, fan accounts were bombing me with private messages with pictures of them together. I didn't want to see them, but my curiosity took over and i started opening them.

"I find it very odd tho that she didn't leave after that night." I looked at Billie, she didn't seem to know what she was gonna respond to that. So i sighed and searched for my spare key in my pocket. "Please get your stuff, and let it go."

Billie her eyes started to water, and i didn't want to be a cold bitch towards her. But she knew she hurt me, and i told her about my jealousy towards Madison. She also knew that i had one ex whom i loved with my whole heart, and that she left me heartbroken after cheating on me multiple times. And now Billie did the same, the love of my life. At least i thought she was that. And with fucking who? Yes Madison.
"I am so sorry Lana, i am so sorry for hurting you. But it felt right at that time because i was under influence of alcohol, and i can't turn it back around. But now i regret it, and i promise you i'll never ever do it again." She basically started to beg and i looked into the distance, thinking about what was i gonna say.

"Please get your stuff at my place, then put the keys in the mailbox after your done. I will text you when i'm ready."

"When will that be? How much time do you need? You know I can't live without you." Billies crying upset me and i let my tears stream down my cheeks. I looked up to her while i bit my lip, still considering if i was gonna forgive her or not. "I'm sorry Billie i can't do this now." I pressed the spare key in her hands and walked back into the restaurant. I put on my apron again and wiped away all my tears. I could see Billie walking away through the windows, she seemed very upset that I had just sent her away.

Sophie walked over to me and laid her hand on my back. "You okay?" I nodded at her. "Breakups are always hard." She pulled me in a quick hug. "I agree, but if you feel like its getting too much please go home."

I let go of her and walked over to the plates that stood ready for the customers, i shrugged my shoulders while focusing on holding the plates. "She is there now, so no thank you." I then walked over to the tables, serving all the customers for the rest of the night. Lily picked me up at 9, we went to Mac Donalds to get ourselves some chicken nuggets and milkshakes. Lily was staying for the night after she heard that Billie went by the restaurant. We drove home when i turned on the radio, Back to you from Selena Gomez was on the radio, i looked out of the window listening to it.

You could break my heart in two, but when it heals it beats for you.

We got at my place and i walked in, i found the spare key in the mailbox. So it seemed like everything was gone. A note on the table caught my eye, i sighed slightly and walked over to it.