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19.O Lonely

Since everybody was so excited about Billie's p.o.v i'm doing it again.
So hi. ❤️
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Billie's p.o.v.
"Gold is fake, and real love hurts. But nothing hurts when i'm alone." I sing into the microphone while Finneas was playing the guitar. It was the last show in London tonight, and then we were gonna go to Manchester. The soundcheck was going well today, and I had a very good feeling about tonight. There were some fans who could check out the soundcheck, and I saw from the corner of my eye that Lana was standing on the side of the stage.

Its been two night since Lana told me about her fanfic, I couldn't get my mind off it. So this morning after i whined a lot about it the last days, she made me read it, and I felt a little uncomfortable until I knew that she was just being the kink she is. Let's say it inspired me. And it turned me on. The whole day long already. Let's get this over with, please.

It was the end of the soundcheck and fans could ask some questions before we took pictures with them. I couldn't get my mind of Lana herself. For the last few days, she didn't want to do shit and it was driving me crazy. And since she wants to write crazy stuff about me, which I totally loved. She had to face the consequences.

I walked towards her after the soundcheck came to an end.

" Hey babe, you know that sounded good?"

I nodded in response before grabbing her hand. "yeah sure it was." I mumbled before walking to the green room. We were alone for the rest of the day, and I wanted to take advantage of it. I locked the door when we came in and by the looks on Lana her face I could already tell that she knows what was gonna happen.

"Billie no." She stated while i tried to pull her into my arms, she was wrestling to let go of my grip.

"Why not? C'mon baby, let me love you like nobody can." I started giving her small kisses on her neck.

"What don't you understand about no?" I let go of her, feeling already as irritated as i can be. I didn't want to push her, but at first she didn't wanted to stop touching me. And no she doesn't want to stop being a pain in the ass. Did i just really said that? "Alright, i'm gonna get ready for tonight." I walked out of the room leaving her alone, i got shit to do.

Lana's p.o.v.

I could feel tears coming out of my eyes when Billie left the room. She wanted to be close to me, but i couldn't. I'd think she would understand it if she would know that i knew something she has been hiding for a little while. I looked in the mirror and wiped the tears away. Try to act as normal as you can be Lana. its okay.

I took the bus to the hotel, and checked my messages. I didn't hear anything from Kate the last few days. So i decided to give her a call.

"I've been waiting for you call." Kate shouted into the phone with enthousiasm.

"I know you have, i'm so sorry.. Its been busy the last few days." I sighed while i walked off the bus at my stop. "How have you been? You sound like you are having a great day."

"I have, therapy went really well. And this morning they let me go outside finally after two weeks. The forest is really beautiful, and i enjoyed every single part of it." I walked into the hotel upstairs to our room while Kate rambled about her little adventures the last few days, and that Lily tried to visit her every two days. I walked into the room and tried to hold my tears back. "I just think that i will get better you know?"