All the secrets of a fangirl | B. E. Story |

72.O Rewind it

"Please no Billie, don't make me do this again." I said, whining while i tried to get out of her hug.

We were sitting on the couch in the living room, a notebook in front of us while Billie asked me over and over what happened to me the last month. Moments came back into my mind, all the things Charlie did to me suddenly weren't as faded as i thought  a fragile second ago. I sighed, looking over to my girl. Her eyes were big, and i could see she was holding back her tears.

I shouldn't be so selfish thinking it's hard for me, since it was as hard for her too. I softly started to stroke her soft cheek, wrapping her up in my arms as i connected our lips. Kissing her slowly, closing my eyes as butterflies started to fly around again in my lower stomach. Goosebumps over my arms as i felt the same familiair tingling feeling in my veins when she slid her tongue into my mouth, giving her full dominance of the kiss.

"Don't change the subject Lana.." I sighed against her lips, opening up my eyes to look into hers again. I nodded, simply agreeing to her.

"Alright." I grabbed the blanket from the basket standing beside the couch, covering it all up over my body while i peeked underneath from it at her. Billie grabbed the notebook up from the table and looked at me once again.

"I need the details, otherwise the police won't take us seriously.." I furrowed both my eyebrows at her comment wondering why they wouldn't take my goddamn story seriously, shrugging it off as i started to worry.

"She just took me hostage, it was in a small house at the end of a road. One time, well.. Last week, i could finally see where we were. But there was a huge forest, and it was around ten minutes from the city. So i have no clue Bill where i was.." I started picking my nails, anger filling up my guts while i got reminded about it again.

"There were nights she would rape me, Lily sitting beside the bed making sure i wouldn't leave with a gun in her right hand. Charlie told me she had to punish me for what i've done, how i've left her and that you were-" I laid my head back against the couch, rubbing my eyes softly. Hard enough to see stars appearing in the black distance.

"You also were a reason that she'd did it. And that's it, that's how it went. Everyday.  Until i got a chance of escaping.." Billie nodded her head, writing everything down. I watched her move, how come i got so fucking lucky.

The whole room was silent beside Billie's pen running on the paper of the notebook, and the wood crackling in the fireplace. I missed our home, i missed nights with Billie on the couch. Most of the time she would write down new songs, not all the details about my abductor. The feeling of Billie's head lying down on my stomach caught me out of my thoughts, i started to massage the back of her scalp as i looked over to her. She was such a softie, and i fucking love it.

"Bill?" I asked her.

"Mhm?"

"Are we gonna get married tho?"

It made her jump out of her position, looking at me with the same big eyes she had a moment ago. "Why wouldn't we?"

I shrugged up my shoulders, holding back my tears while i looked over to her. "What if you can't love me again the way you did before?" She wrapped me up in her arms, pulling me into her lap as she held me close. I could hear her heart beating, as her breathing started to quicken.

"I won't love anyone else beside you, forever and ever." She stated, stroking my cheeks. I looked up to her, giving her a soft smile. "I love you the most tho."

"You can't." I sighed, trailing my finger all up and down her jawline, making its way to the collar of her tshirt.

"I can, do you want me to prove it?" I nodded in response as she made her way on top of me, kissing me down my neck. Leaving a small trail of hickeys as she laid both her hands on my hips, squeezing it to hold my body closer to hers. I let out a loud gasp, since i didn't expect her to do this to me. "Fuck Bill, i-"

I couldn't finish my sentence, since my pants were down my ankles and my panties between her teeth. The same playful look she always had as she went down on me, looked into my eyes. I grinned, laying my head back down on the couch, relaxing my body when she touched the inside of my thighs. Her softly stroking them turned me on so badly, such a fucking tease.

As two fingers all of the sudden entered inside me, i gasped for air. Closing my eyes as a rush of mixed feelings went through my veins. Don't get me wrong, it felt so good to finally get touched like that by the person you love so fucking much. But after everything that happened, i had to get used to it again.

Billie moaning between my legs as she attached her lips on my clit caught my attention again, i laid my hand on the back of her head and grabbed for her ponytail. Slowly pulling her back, while she tried to touch me again. I loved the game of dominance we always played, she was such a dom when it came to our sex. But having some sort of control over my fiancé was so fucking hot. I moaned, looking deeply into her eyes as she started sucking my clit. Giving me goosebumps again.

"Take it off." She demanded as she pointed at my sweater.

I bit my lip, tilting my head to the side. "What? This?"

"Take. it. fucking. off." I sighed, closing my legs a little bit so she had her face squeezed between my upper legs. Looking like a cute little muffin.

"Oh isn't you a fucking cu-" I gasped again when she got up from between my legs, pulling my sweater over my head. Exposing my body to her.

"Sometimes i just wanna fucking choke you Lana." I tried to relax again when she wrapped both her hands around my throat, squeezing it softly.  She was so fucking good at this, making me soft for her and i'd listen to her anytime she would tell me something i had to do in bed. Remember how i told you i'm dominant sometimes too? Yeah, thats completely gone  now.

"You lay down here, ass up in the air. I'll be back." When Billie walked out of the room leaving me in complete astonishment, i decided to agree with it and put my ass up in the air. Small footsteps entered the room while i looked over to the wall beside the couch, she probably would get irritated if i looked up now.

"Listen to me Lana.. If you're gonna be bad again, i have to fucking punish you. And after everything we don't want that. Don't we?" I nodded, holding back a small smile by the way she was acting.

I could feel her entering me with her strap on from the back, a gasp left my mouth at the same time with a loud moan. "FUCK BILLIE." She loved that, cause she started to move deeper inside of me, rubbing my clit in circles.

It was so hard to hold back my moans, since i didn't want to be loud. Giving her the intention that she indeed had complete control of me, and my body. But since my legs began the shake i guess it was time to give in. I grabbed for the pillows, moaning out loud in one of them. As an irritating voice caught my attention coming from the back. "Let go of that fucking pillow."

I did as she wanted to and moaned out loud while i rested my head backwards, causing Billie to grab for my hair as she moved the strap on deeper inside of me.

A tight knot started to form inside my stomach and my legs started to shake, they became weaker. "Fuck yes right there.." I moaned out loud while i could feel myself cum. Billie got out of me, and got down on her knees to lick up all my juices and clean me up.

"Damn.. My fiancé tastes so fucking good.." I giggled by her saying that.

"Make me your wifey Eilish.."

"When?" She said, turning me on my back while she laid herself on top of me.

"As soon as possible.."

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Hey guys, i wanted to say that i'm finishing up the book soon. I feel like as well for Lana and Billie there has happened a lot, and we're coming to a point it's good for what it is.... honestly wanna hear y'all opinions on that tho!
I love you.❤️