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50.O Girl's insane

After Billie's invitation to her show, i got pretty hyped about it. This morning i finally had some alone time, Charlie was at her job interview this morning and she told me that she was going to get some drinks with her best friend. I wouldn't mind, since some alone time is much needed after she is so clingy and wants to have me all the time.

While I applied my foundation, I looked at my neck. The bruises were pretty clear from the time Charlie thought it was necessary to take me to the edge while she choked me. Thinking it was hot as she was on top. I extended the foundation to the bruises so that it did not stand out. I got distracted by how beautiful the weather outside was, and i missed how quiet it was around here. Lily was also pretty dissapointed with the fact we were never on our own anymore. Charlie really knew how to change the mood real quick when we were all together.

I pulled my hair into a low ponytail and checked on myself before i got my car keys to get going. The drive to the venue wasn't as long as expected, i took it all in again after arriving, and seeing the fans queing outside. I parked my car on the side of the parkings spots and got out of the car. There were tents set up, and i saw many girls singing to Billie's music while it blasted out of the radio they took with them.

"Look it's Lana." I tried to hide my face from getting recognized, but the hardcore fans obviously knew who i was at this point.

"Hi guys, i really have to get inside." I stated while they came close to me, i pulled them in a quick hug. "We could take a group photo tho, then i really have to go." As we did i looked behind the guy who took the photo of us together. Charlie? I shook my head to look again and let out a deep sigh to see it was just another girl with blonde curls. "Thanks guys, i miss you all." I said before i had to go.

Paranoid me pulled out the phone out of my bag to see i got 5 missed calls from her, when i called her back i could hear her cracky grumpy low voice yelling through the phone. "So guess where i am?"

I shrugged my shoulders and let my hand go through my ponytail as i whirled the hair around my fingers. "I don't know, you were going to meet up with Kristy right?"

"No wise ass, i'm at home. And you are nowhere to be seen." I let my head hung back and sighed out real loud. "I told you i was going out too today."

"I want you to come home whenever your done with visiting your mom, and drinking coffee with that Sophie chick. Because momma's wants some attention to." I could feel myself choke on my spit when she said that. Gross. As you can see it's neccessary to lie to her, since she doesn't believe or like a thing i say to her. She would love to hold me in a cage in the basement too, so she can have me all to herself.

"Okay." I hang up on her as i made my way to the back entrance. I saw a guy with purple hair standing outside with a cigarette in his hand. Fuck. Was Q for real the first one i have to see here? "Hey." The air became pretty awkward when he noticed me, as he didn't know to act he just smiled to me and pulled his hand out. "I didn't remember you being this beautiful."

I slapped his hand away and pulled him into a hug. "How have you been?" As he nodded i let go of him and scanned his face. "I'm pretty good, you seem good too." I held my hands up in the air and chuckled a little. "You know me, always doing my thing."  I crossed my arm and let my eyes scan all over the area around me. There were many's busses, and people were walking in and out with huge constructions of Billie's stage. "Come, i'll bring you to her."

We walked inside and i followed Brandon since he exactly knew where we were going. It was pretty busy inside, ever since Billie became bigger she had to go on tour more and had more performances all over the world. Deep inside my fangirl heart was living for it, but i tried so hard to hide it because i didn't want to give anyone the feeling i wanted to get back with her. All tho i do. But i don't. You know?