All the secrets of a fangirl | B. E. Story |

61.O Say yes.

*flasback*
"Billie."

"Stop Billie-ing me. Lana you know i want you too. But if we're gonna do it like we did years ago, i'm not in for it." I spat at her, trying not to look as angry as i was feeling right now.

"Give me a chance." The way she looked at me made my heart drop into my feet, but inside i felt scared. We all knew what happened when she left..

"Why would i?"

"Cause we can only make each other happy."

And that was true. The way i was with Brandon, wasn't the same when i was with her. She could give me so many butterflies all at the same time, that it made me sick. But Lana also knew how to break me.. The scars that are now finally healing, tell you all about it.

"We can try it.. We can. But-" I interrupted her from jumping into my arms.

"But, we have to communicate.." She nodded her head and i opened up my arms to embrace her in a long thight hug while i closed my eyes.

New beginnings..
*end of flashback*

Billie's p.o.v

"But Bil, i wanna sit by the window." I rolled my eyes for the sixth time in two minutes and stepped aside for her to sit by the window. I laughed when i saw Finneas's look on his face, slapping his softly against his cheek. "Let the lady sit by the window, kay?"

He nodded and so we sat next to each other. Ready for the flight to Italy where out vacation finally could begin, i closed my eyes trying to catch some sleep before Lana was gonna lose her shit when we arrive in Europe.

The whole plane ride i slept in, i could hear my girlfriend and brother playing cards from beside me and my mom telling my dad philosophical shit about a book she just read. When the plane was ready to land, i decided to open up my eyes. A soft kiss on my cheek greeted me, while I grabbed for her hand. "hi, mamas."

"Hi baby.." She giggled at me, her cheeks flushed red.

"Guys, you make me wanna puke." I poked Finneas his side and shook my head. "You'd better be grateful that Claudia is coming tommorow, cause imma be all over my lady." He gestured that he was gonna gag so i turned myself away from him. Letting out a sigh of relief when the plane finally landed safely on the ground.

Inside the airport there were a couple of fans who found out i was going to Italy. After taking many pics, chatting away with them and getting our suitcases we could head to the villa we rented out for the week.

It was a beautiful building near the beach, the old wooden look looked really dope, and by seeing the size of the house i could feel like Lana and i would finally have some time for each other.

Officially, i haven't asked her yet to be mine again. We act like we are in a relationship, and that is totally cool with me. But i needed to ask her, in a special way. In a way, only i could ask her to. I grabbed my suitcase from my dad who handed it over and made my way inside.

It was a typical Italian home, but sure i'm not being cheesy. But this shit is romantic as fuck. "Yo i'm taking this one." The big bedroom with a kingsize bed in the middle of it , caught my attention. Claiming the room immediately with riding my suitcase inside.

"What are your plans, Eilish?" I could see Lana wiggling her eyebrows when she walked in, and i shrugged up my shoulders.

"Baby, only the best for you." She laughed, making snoar sounds after laughing too damn hard.

"Ehhhh." I pressed my lips against her when she came closer and smiled when she opened up her lips, causing me to slide my tongue inside her mouth. Playing a dominant game, spinning circles around her tongue with mine.