UNDER CONSTRUCTION.🚧
" When someone else's happiness is your happiness, it is love. But is love even real? "
Lana thought she found the love of her life, but it looked like things were getting rocky from there. Will their relationship survive? Or...
So what has been happening for the last week, is that I'm letting myself get fooled by the one i don't want to get fooled by. Billie and i have been fucking around for like a few days now, we text a lot about it. And then we just let it happen, whenever wherever. Me myself was a mess, not knowing what was going on with my feelings, and feeling anxiety wherever i go.
Billie was still with Madison, she said yes to the answer of getting married. And they were planning their wedding also, i wish that they were planning on canceling it. But they didn't. How i found out? Well after out 'thingy' we went to Mc Donalds, and there was a wedding magazine in the side of the door. I asked her about it, Billie just told me about it. She even had a wide grin on her face, god she must have been so proud when i asked her about it.
I was promising myself that i was not gonna let it happen again when Billie called me last night, but me the cheap ass i am for her agreed to it. Deep inside i still had a little sparkle of hope that she was gonna come back to me, but when i saw TMZ posting news about them again while leaving a bakery or a jewelry store made my heart drop. I hated Madison, i would basically do anything to make sure she is gonna leave Billie, and make Billie mine again. But at the same time, Billie did all the bad things and Madison just wanted to go with it.
Karma is a dangerous thing, and it has been destroying me for the last few days. My mom didn't raise me the way i am acting right now, and i knew that it wasn't and isn't right to make Billie cheat, just because she cheated on me. And that i'm am weak for her. I don't want my feelings to get control over me, and i don't want to have this life i'm living right now.
Anyways, i called Michelle. Since Billie wants to move on with Madison, i could have my own fun. We have been driving around the whole day, having a little road trip. We called in Lily and Liam, i didn't want to make it awkward since i didn't know Michelle very well. It was very sunny outside, the temperature was pretty hot but just cool enough for us to go on a road trip. I took a picture of myself while i sat in the passenger's seat of her car.
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We decided to have dinner at an Indonesian restaurant in Los Angeles, tonight we were going out with the four of us. So we had to get some fun before we could get into the clubs. Our food was actually pretty good. We had a really good time together, and i could finally start to admit that Michelle actually has a great personality and a great sense of humor. She even got along with Liam and Lily. Lily, usually the one who doesn't seem to like everyone or trust everyone was really happy and laughing along with Michelle.
I didn't have the intention to get into a relationship with her, but days like these where we had fun together, i could get used to. When we finished our dinner we went on to drink some cocktails. Hours went by and we walked on the street, looking for a nice club. One where the drugs dealers weren't hanging around at the entrance. We found one, it was called 'Club savae.'
