All the secrets of a fangirl | B. E. Story |

30.O Heart burning

"Say that again." Billie spat at me while she walked towards me, by her body language she seemed mad. But her eyes told me she wasn't. I couldn't take her that serious, because seriously look at her clothes. She looked like an absolute dork.

"I told you, you are not doing this." I crossed my arms and felt my cheeks turn red, the embarassement didn't hit me yet. But all of the family looking at me, sure made me feel uncomfortable. "Not in front of me, please." I put the glass down on the table and grabbed for my bag who was hanging on Claudia her shoulder. "Sorry." I mumbled before i walked out of the backyard, i could feel Madison's eyes burning while i was leaving. I felt so stupid for making a fool of myself, but i wasn't gonna handle this. Deep inside my heart i'd wonder, if Maggie knew about this.

I got in the car and let the bag slide down on the passengers seat when i got shocked by a person pounding on my window. I let out a sigh and signed 'no' to her when i found out it was Billie. "Please open up." I stared into the distance for a minute before i was gonna decide if i was gonna get out, or just drive away from her and let it all go. And forget this just happened. I rolled down the window.

"I'm sorry, i didn't knew you were coming. And i planned this out with Finneas, so."

"Well great, continue with it. I'm gonna leave." I laid my hands down on my upper legs while i was playing with my nailpolish, ripping it apart on my nails. Anxiety was really getting the best of me right now. "You never tried to contact me Billie, and i don't know how to close this chapter."

"You don't wanna get back with me, so thats why i didn't contact you." She put her hands down inside her pockets and looked around her, she was biting her lip. She was probably nervous, i couldn't blame her. It would be suspicious tho, first your ex is coming at your family party, and - second she is leaving and you are following her. I grabbed my bag from the passengers seat and patted on it. "Lets go somewhere quiet, we have to talk about this."

Billie didn't hesitate and walked over to the door on the other side of the car and let herself sit down in the passengers seat, i drove of the driveway and made my way to the park who was a mile from her house. I parked the car in the parking lot and got out of it, Billie followed. We walked over to a picnic table in the middle of a large field. I let myself sit down. It became quiet, awkwardly quiet. We both weren't ready to say goodbye, but how were we gonna move on from this. Billie is engaged, at least i think she is. I ruined it for her, so her chances aren't as high as they were before. "Just between the two of us, do you really love that girl?"

She sighed, she knew that this question was gonna come from me. "I don't love her the way i loved you." I nodded, and started to carf in the wood with my car key. "I don't think i ever will."

"Well you guys are engaged now, i think. So you have to deal with her ass now for the rest of your life." I let out a little laugh, finding myself ironically funny at this moment. I bit my lips and held my mouth shut when she looked at me with a dead ass serious face. "Sorry."

"I still want you Lana, and i don't know what i have to do for it." I shrugged my shoulders and looked to the clouds in the sky, they started to turn very dark. "I told you to fight for me, you didn't." It started to rain a little bit and i sighed. "You want to have my jacket?" Billie asked.

"Please no, you look ridicoulous with that outfit of yours." She seemed shocked by my reaction and started to laugh ass well. "It isn't me, i have to admit that." I winked at her while i snapped my fingers. "Finally you admit. The fans are going crazy over your outfits lately." I laughed while i suddenly felt the rain pouring on my arms and legs. I stood up from the picnic table and run to the car, Billie followed. We sat down in the car and i looked into her eyes, our faces came closer and i bit my lip. "We really shouldnt do this, we're gonna get hurt again."

"Oh mamas i'm gonna fuck you, i dont care about getting hurt again. I want you." Billie stated.

Our lips connected instantly and i got over to the passengers seat to sit on her lap, i threw my legs around her and I pushed the passenger seat back. The kiss was heated, forcefull, agressive like we have been needing each other for a long while now. I started to grind on her softly, slowly opening up her blouse. She was wearing a neon pink bra underneath it. I looked up to her with a small grin on my face. "What is up with you and this new style.."

"If you don't like it, take it off me." Billie said seductively I looked around me, the wind was very hard and the rain was pouring down on my front window. It looked really quiet around the car, so i wasn't expecting anyone to walk in on us at the car. Or that there would be some crazy paparazzi trying to take photo's of us from inside the bushes.
I threw off her blouse and released her from her bra, i looked to her breasts. Her nipples looked so soft, i squeezed in the left one while i looked into her eyes with hunger. "Fuck me now, Bill." I whispered in her ear while i felt her hands grabbing for my ass, squeezing it sofly and taking off my panties underneath the skirt from my dress. I bit her neck slowly, while i was leaving sloppy kisses all over her body. When i came to her breasts i licked her left nipple before gently sucking on it.

She eased my hips down and i felt her inserting two fingers, slowly going in and out. My pussy was already wet by seeing her the moment i walked into the backyard, so it was easy to enter inside. You could hear her fingers sobbing while getting in and out of me. I let out a loud moan while i was still sucking on her nipple, i started to ride on her finger, i was going up and down on it while she inserted a third finger inside of me.

Billie knew to hit me in the right spot and she started to pound faster inside of me. Her tumb was rubbing my clit and i couldn't help but moan her name as loud as i possible could be. I was so ready for my climax after i felt a knot forming in my stomach. I grabbed for Billie's hair and kissed her again roughly. I let myself release on her fingers and she stopped kissing me, she looked into my eyes. I got a bit shy because she suddenly stopped. "Whats wrong?"

She brought up her fingers to her mouth and cleaned herself up by licking it all up, looking at me at the same time with a huge smirk on her face. "No one tastes as good as you do babes." She then grabbed her bra to put it on again. I felt a little dissapointed and looked over to her. "But what are we gonna do now?.."

I let myself sit in the driver seat and wanted to grab my panties that was laying on the ground. "Nuhuh." She grabbed it from the floor to put it in her pocket. "I'm keeping this with me." I started to car and blushed a little when she was putting on her blouse again, she was such a little kink. But i was so uncomfortable by the fact that we weren't a thing, and that now i'm driving home i'm bringing her back to that bitch.

I drove to Billie's house and parked my car at the end of the street. People were probably wondering where the hell Billie went. I stopped the car and turned it off. "You are gonna wait for me?" Billie asked. "Are you gonna break off thing with Madison or nah?"

She shrugged her shoulders and looked out of the window, she was rubbing her chin. "You fucking are." I yelled at her, feeling like a complete idiot for letting myself get fucked by her again. "You are not deciding anything." Billie noted.

I got out of the car feeling more frustrated as i already was and moved over to her side, throwing her door open. "I'm deciding that you are leaving now and that i want my panties back." I held up my hand while she got out of the car, she walked besides me to her house. She didn't respond and turned around when she walked up on her driveway at her house. "See you later babe." She shouted, i was biting the inside of my cheek.

Fucking hell.

What are we gonna do now?

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