All the secrets of a fangirl | B. E. Story |

41.O Let me down

"I'm not okay." My head kept on spinning after Billie told me so many theories today, she was scared, panicking, and she wasn't feeling well. Ever since Madison thought it was a good idea to tell the media, she has been like this. The next few days we were heading for the areas at the West Coast but she was to anxious to even think about it.

Slowly stroking her back while trying to listen to her, kept me from panicking too. "You will be fine baby, the real fans won't go anywhere."

I looked outside, we were finally at my place again so we could find some peace and rest. Last night Lily and Liam visited with plates full of food, they knew how hard it has been on us the last day. Billie's managment is getting bombed asking for interviews and radio shows, ofcourse they won't ask her for her talent. They ask her for one thing, and that thing is; Madison.

Ever since Madison did what she wanted to do, she completely went off the radar. She did this before, and it probably wasn't gonna take her long until she was gonna come back and ruin our lives for the 1000th time this month.

"You shouldn't be scared, the only thing she can come for is her money.."

I grinned a bit when i thought of what Lily told Billie last night after she had another panic attack while eating dinner. It was nice to get isolated from social media for a night, at one point it wasn't even the order of the day. Didn't take long for Billie to panic again, but okay.

"Babe we have to go pack up our bags, it isn't gonna take any much longer for your parents to arrive here with the bus." I got up from the couch and walked into my room to check my bags again, i already packed them up because i had to put my mind on something else beside listening to the drama hours long. I smiled at Billie when she walked in and zipped up my bag to take it into the living room.

I took out my phone and rolled my eyes when somebody tagged me in a picture of myself where i looked like total shit.

"Billie Eilish girlfriend is looking miserable after finding out Billie cheated on her."

Old news.. They should have seen me the day i found out it was with Madison last year. I could hear the bus outside honk for us when they arrived, finally Billie was ready too. It has been a rainy day today so i put on my leather jacket with my black hoodie underneath it.

"Check, check, double check?" I joked at Billie while i grabbed my bag from the floor to give her a kiss on her cheek.

"mhm." She mumbled looking pretty frustrated when we left the apartment.

I was startled by bright flashes when I closed the door behind me. Tall men gathered around me with the newest cameras in their hands. "Are you guys breaking up any soon Lana Miller?" I held my hand over my head while trying to find my way to the bus. Billie was walking meters in front of me, clearly irritated that they had  found out where i live. I turned around when I felt someone pulling my bag from me.

"Yo wtf, let me go?" I said while i pulled my bag back.

He had his moment and took another shot of me when i snapped at him. "Come here sweetie." Maggie said when she stood at the doorway of the bus. I walked over to her while i still tried to hide my face from everyone. I got in the bus and threw the bag over to Billie who was already chilling in the corner of the couch.

"Fuck you." I stomped to the backside of the bus, Billie have been dissapointing me. Not being a big girl about the situation that has been happening, but leaving me behind with the paparazzi hurt even more. I smiled sympethetaclly at Maggie when she walked in and sat beside me, she laid her arm around me and pulled me close to her. She pressed a long kiss on my forehead and i could feel the love and warmth of a mom i needed so much rn.