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40.O Fairytale of lies

"No,  come closer you." She laughed and held me closer, we were dancing to my favorite music and our heads were pushed against each other, looking deeply into each other's eyes. Losing ourselves in the moment and the music.

"Swinging in the backyard, pull up in your fast car." I hummed while still holding myself close to Billie.

We were at the local bar, Coachella was just one week ago and Billie wanted to take me out without getting recognized. Our girl was too scared to come out, of course.

All of the rednecks here wouldn't know who she was anyways, so this was a perfect spot to come with her. And they loved to play some Lana del Rey songs everytime i came around.

While looking into her blue ocean eyes i reminded myself how many times i dreamed of this, but that it would actually happen to me.. I'm so lucky. Billie is such a sweet person and really tried to get to know me better for the last few days, she stayed at my place for a little while, she met Liam, and we both took care of Kate.

She noticed that it was exhausting me, so this was perfect.

"Fuck i love you." I looked into her eyes and i've seen them become bigger after what she just said. I nodded and bite my lip, i wanted to say it back but i guess it was probably to soon..

"I like to see you too." She let out a sigh of relief and pulled me closer while she placed her hand on the back of my head. We both stood there quiet in a small moment, just before our lips connected and i could feel the elictric i felt with her the very first moment we kissed all over again.

"Heaven is a place on earth with you.."

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Madison rushed in while i closed the door after her, was this a good plan? Probably not. Did i want this? Nope. But if this means that i could end it, then it would be a good thing to do. Maybe.
Sophie seemed pretty shocked by Madison walking in, she turned the rose over to her like a psycho and put it in her hand. Sophie immediately knew where it was coming from and laid it down on the kitchen counter. While i let myself sit down at the chair behind the table. I felt really nervous since she it was such a disturbing image of her showing up at my door like that.

"So, i've been following you lately. But it seems like your bestie over here has already told you about it." I nodded in response while i scanned her. she had bloodshot eyes, and the circles under her eyes betrayed the fact that she didn't sleep.

"I was hoping you would leave me alone after arriving at the show to be honest, i guess i was wrong." I said while i felt shivers run down my back when she put the picture of Lily, Kate and me on the table. I stayed focused tho, scared that she was gonna do anything else.

"I was hoping that too, but you know. I thought about it, but you basically destroyed everything for me." Her fingers were on top of the picture and it seemed she was drawning smileys with her fingers on Kate's face. "That's why i destroyed everything for you."

Damn that's dark..

I closed my eyes for a minute holding in my breath, i knew it was her. I knew it was her the whole time, but her confessing it hit me. Also i didn't want Kate to get hurt because of me.

"Why?" I asked.

"Because of you i lost Billie.. The managment promised me she would be with me for the rest of my life. When we first met when we were younger we instantly clicked. I always had a crush on her, but she was getting so many messages of fans so she wouldn't see mine coming in on Instagram.. Thank god Mike helped me with that. Didn't he Lana?" She winked and i was disgusted by it, i instantly wanted to gag but i tried to keep it cool.