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52.O I would forget that

As we slowly drove up the driveway, i could see the house we arrived at was wooden white and laid in the middle of the dunes of Cali. It was typically quiet around, i  didn't see anyone on the way here. Or at all. I didn't recognized the house, so i suspected she bought it in the time we were broken up. Deep inside it felt like someone stabbed me when Brandon walked out of the house, i kinda didn't expect him here.

But what else would i expect tho.. they are together. And he was so kind to me, so..  I put a fake smile on. I laughed at Q, walking towards him bringing him in for a long hug. The smell of man perfume embraced me, when he pulled me closer. How could i ever hate this guy tho?

Suddenly I could feel a sick feeling down my stomach when i thought about Charlie again and why i was here.

"Don't say too much girl, i heard all about it." Q's face kinda lighten up when i let go of him and he took the suitcase i was holding out of my hands. "I ordered Taco Bell, because i bet you haven't been eating much lately." He pointed as my hips when i noticed it too. The stress caused me to not eat much, or at least enjoy food. You could slowly see me getting thinner, and since they haven't seen much of me in five years. It pointed out you know.

When i walked into the house, i looked around me. The walls were black, when the accessoires and furniture was white. On the couch laid Billie's bhlosh plushed animals and their records on the wall above it. You could say this house was an aesthethic just now by walking in.

"You can sleep over here." Billie walked over to the room at the right in the beginning of the house and put my suitcase on the bed. I laughed a little bit at the bedding. "You are kidding me right?" It was neon green and it had Billie's brand on it. "Why should i be kidding?" She held her hands up in the air as she had a huge grin on her face, certainly not knowing what i was talking about.

"Well you're staying here, so we gucci?" She patted my shoulder before walking out of the room, giving me the space to adjust for a minute. I let myself sit down at the end of the bed while i let my hand move around the bedding. It felt soft and it smelled like fresh sheets, it was so sweet of them two to let me stay here.

I pulled my hair into a high ponytail and took some makeup remover wipes out of my suitcase, i cleaned up my face as i looked at myself. Kinda ashamed of what i have become, i let out a loud sigh before walking up to Billie and Q. I tried to avoid her gaze as i walked into the kitchen, i grabbed out some food out of the taco bell bag and looked at the clock.

3pm.. I shouldn't eat tho. Charlie wouldn't like it..

Mentally kicking myself in the butt i let the thought go, and sit down on the couch beside theirs. I took a bite from my burrito and closed my eyes when i tasted how good it was. "Did she look like that when you ate her out?" Brandon jokingly said before he got kicked by Billie in his stomach.

"No, that was much better." I playfully said before laughing way too hard, choking on my food. Which made me cough like a mf, and my eyes water as i sat the plate down on the table. I could hear Brandon laugh either, and we high fived when Billie looked more annoyed then she should do at this point. "Sorry babe." I pouted as i could see her holding back her laugh.

We all looked over at the tv, there was nothing on it beside many commercials. "Thanks guys for letting me stay here." I could see Billie lay her head on his shoulder and snuggle up close with him. He kissed her forehead and a little feeling of jealousy hit me for a second before i shrugged it off. "Ofcourse, you know you still mean so much to me okay?" I nodded at her response and let my head lean down on my hand.

Deep down i felt really bad again for Charlie when i thought of her when a girl with blonde girls showed up on the television. I could at least let her know i was going away for a time. Leaving a note, y'all know i'm so good at that right. I had my other hand on my lap and noticed the bruise i got from her going crazy yesterday. Nope, she didn't deserve to know.