Mercy please, save me

Johann POV

Weeks and months passed by and I'm falling to her deeper. I fell in her cracks, mesmerized to the beauty of her brokeness. I'm so sure that I gonna protect this little bundle of cold and pain. At all cost.

Kahit bente lang ako at kulang pa ang kaalaman sa buhay para harapin ang magulo at marahas na mundo. Hindi yun mahahadlangan ang kagustuhan kong protektahan siya.

But sometimes I can't help to be mad at myself, to the circumstances, and to the people surrounds us. I still remember how her cold pair eyes bore into mine when Rina kissed me on my lips. For me it's just a kissed that I naturally just shrugged of. Truthfully, Rina was one of my playmates on bed and nothing more than that.

But seeing her how she watched that scene feels like I committed a crime and will never be have parol to have a second chance. Because first, I let her see how douchebag I was. Second, I failed to protect her.

She was sitting in that bowl, almost naked and bathing on her own blood. I sense that they can bully her that's why I'm asking her to be with me but I didn't know this can happen to her. I should have stayed on her side and not just standing from the distance!

I know she doubts me because of happening to her but I thought telling her how much I like her after the club incident, and will do everything for her safety will make her feel at peace, at least. Or maybe not?

And I was right, day by day, I see how life try to leave her. She walks like a deadman. When I saw her bleeding hand and tend her wounds without crying as if she was used to it.. Kung kaya ko lang kunin ang lahat ng sakit na meron siya. If I can stop every bad thing that will happen to her, ginawa ko na. So that she won't begged for her mother to stay with her, to come back, on the street.

It was a big impact to her, I know. Because when I saw her just standing infront of that fucking car and how she's so ready to be gone is the time I almost lost my mind. I thought I gonna lost her and infront of my eyes!

She wants to go. And I'm going crazy because of that thought. I can't sleep properly every night thinking what if I wake up next morning and.. she's gone?

"Where's Sweet, Johann?" nagtatakang tanong ni Faith.

"Hindi mo tinubos?" sabi ng kakambal kong kaholding hands si Faith.

"I did. She was furious when she found out that I'm the mastermind." I can't help not to chuckle. She's really mad but I can still see how she hold her shyness and she's blushing!

"Where is she?!" galit na tanong na ni Faith."There are many students here from St. Dominique, Johann.. It might triggers her or someone might bully her again!"

"I'll just gonna buy us some drinks then I'll go to her." casual na sabi ko. Alam ko. Alam kong ilan sa mga taong 'to maaring mambully sakanya but I made sure Rica and Rina won't be here. Their business might be falling now. I just did something to make them suffer, it may sound imposible but I pulled some strings. They shouldn't messed up with my baby.

"Johann, you didn't understand-"

"Hep. Hep. Hep. You're being over reacted right there, love. She's probably just-" bumitaw si Faith kay Jared hindi pinatapos at naglakad palayo nilagpasan ako.

Bumuntong hininga na lamang si Jared saka kami humabol.

And once again, I'm so mad at myself! And to everyone who's trying to messed up with her!

Nagdilim ang paningin ko nang makita siyang nilulublob sa fountain ng dalawang lalake at may dalawang babaeng nakatayo at pinapanuod ito.

"What the fuck!?" sigaw ni Faith.